Happy B-DAY TUCKK:D

Happy 17th B-day to you:) Is like your almost one year younger than me sia, even though your born on the year 1993 haha, after your 17th B-Day like one week & a few days, i will be 18 haha i look so old with you uh haha.

ANW, we have been friends for 5 years, and even when we have a really "cold" war this year, but we went through right? Thus it will make our friendship even stronger i believe:) hope you have a great birthday and also a great year ahead, see you soon yea:D

Busy Busy Holiday & Fun Christmas:D:D

Have neglected my blog for quite a long time yea haha, because have been enjoying SHINee's videos, really love their dance and pop music. Din really update because i am only posting for a place to let my life to been known, so is okay:) warning is gonna be a long post haha.

Had a great holiday with meeting up with my pals and family time, this week is a Christmas week and also first week of holidays. It have been great and my whole week is being packed up with outings and family times, just to update mon went overnight K with aunt & cousin and stayed over at grandma's house. Tues stayed at home to pack some stuff and slack a bit while helping my mum out, wed went to harmonic concert with jemmy it was awesome haha, thurs went christmas shopping with hui qi, she wanna buy some presents and fri went out to movies and shopping with yu xin & mu lan. Sat is christmas and went over to grandma's house for party and family gathering aunt brought us christmas presents and i loved them, thank you all my 3 aunts:D

I learnt and grew up alot this year and i made lots of good friends when i went to I.T.E, at least now i learn to cope with stress and also to look at things on the bright side, it really makes me a lot more happier, and i believe i will continue to grow more in the coming 2011, time flies and 2010 is coming to an end but i really had a great year other than some small hiccups, it is really okay for me:) I have lots more activities coming up the week after and most importantly, my SIS's birthdae is coming hehe looking forward to it man:)

Okay shall post till here, let the pictures do the talking barhx haha:)

HAPPY B-DAY SISMING/DADDY

Hehe happy 19th birthday to you, stay funny and humourious always yea:) it had been a nice/hard time though our friendship for the past 8 mths, but hope it will last yea. Don't PMS too much uh if not i will feel like bashing you up sometimes other that you are really a great friend. Change your temper and work hard for good G.P.A uh jyjy and happy B-Day:)

HAPPY B-DAY CHOI MINHO:D

Hehe you are 2 years older than me:) Just wanna tell you this, your great in your rapping and dance, and you rock in pianist too:) hope to see more of SHINee's songs and you too:) Wish that you will continue to work harder yea:) really admire you and last but not least, Happy B-day:D

解不开的谜底

在十一月过以前，我想把解不开的两个问题说出口。第一，我一直在问自己是否是一个称职的朋友？我做的好不好呢？每一个我认识的人我都以真心来和他/她做朋友。可是不管我怎么做，我老是觉得自己做的不过多。我也不知道如何解释为何我有这样的想法，希望有朋友能告诉我那里做的不够好我希望能改过来。

第二，已经一年了我不知道我到底在等什么？他过的很好啊都是我自己还没放弃吧？或许是时候醒一醒了吧，好想知道下一步该往那里走才能找到答案。

Busy Week:/

I llove their music and i love my life currently:)

I think it is very long since i updated my blog, this is a very busy week for me lack of sleep luh, T-Net sports event, speed stack event SVE's PT tml and project blah blah blah... So Just like the normal days lor, been busy and think i had a terrible headache just now:/ and mummy help me squeeze out the huge pimple on my ear OMG pain sia:( but is good for me so no choice then.

Recently keep meeting weird people uh, but guess sometimes need a bit of white lie to lie through things uh, but nevermind, we have to go though all these in order to grow older yea:) just feel like updating some of my fav band and my life, will write till here then, have to revise on SVE, already starts to feel the stress sia:/

Happy B-Day OrangUtan:D

Hey hey hey happy birthday orangutan, although we are schoolmates for 4 years, but we only became close when we are sec 4 is a bit late uh, but better than nth right:) anyway happy 17th birthday yea:) learn to relax a bit and dun be so tense and stress in your poly work, learn to rest abit and sometimes meet us up to chill for a while. Been very happy for the past 1 year of knowing you, lets keep our friendship till the end yea:)

Happy B-day ABI:D:D:D

Happy 18th B-Day to Abi even when we just get to know each other for around half a year, you have been a very very good friend to me and our friendship is still counting:) Wanna wish you a happy 18th legal birthday haha even is not the full legal age, is one of the age that we should enjoy ttm:) Had a great celebration with you today as we sing like mad women at K-Box shall go there again when we are richer haha:)

First week of school, expected to be busy but it turns out to be okay only busy for 3 days which is before the PAYM competition. The modules for this sem is quite manageable the only module that i am not really good at is writing for business, using too much sms language le so finds it hard to adapt to formal english even when i am taking my Os.

We did well for the PAYM and my group came in first among all the evm first year:) Other than these, actually nothing much happen this week and mostly is study and also work, i will work hard to maintain my 3.588 G.P.A and i will strive to get into SP. Before i go, i am sharing some pictures:)

Before holiday ends and school starts

Okay, sweet sweet holidays are coming to an end, and a new sem is coming with new modules and new things to study, also more and new events coming in. Gotten my results back and my G.P.A is 3.588, yea........................ Happy ttm, if i continue to work hard, SP wait for me i will confirm be able to enter de:) although i am taking a longer route, i believe that if i continue to strive on, i will be able to achieve what i want and i will still reach the end:)

Tomorrow have I DO wedding event, feels quite excited because i get to see a lot of couples getting wed on the same day, which is quite a helpful event if next time i want to get involved in wedding events and become a wedding planner. I now feels more happy after i learn't to not think so much uh, but i admit i am still weak in some places, one is you. I hope that i am just thinking too much again but somehow i can still feel something from you, but never mind, things will be what is should be when the right time is here and i will know the answer between us.

Next Wednesday will have be PAYM final presentation somehow i feel that i really never help much in this project sia, most of the work is done by alex and he never sleep for so many days. Hope that we will be able to win at least one of the 4 prizes, so that our loss of sleep won't be fruitless. But i can't believe i will have to wear a cheongsum on my presentation hais must start to slim and cut on the fatty food intake from tomorrow onwards.

Anyway, have a busy holiday and it is just going to end like that, but i had a nice and not bad one, hope the next one will have you inside and i know i am going to be busy but i will enjoy the busyness haha:)

Holidays

Okay now i am having holidays, now having the bind of O-level, from the next holiday onwards, i want to do volunteer work for children for every holiday. I will spend lesser time on fun and enjoyment for myself and i want to work and help the children, hope i am able to find and i will go at least twice every week. Children are the most innocent and adorable people on earth, some of them just doesn't have what we had, family, health, love so i should spend more time with them and care for them:)

Now is holidays and just passby a few events and i made new friends from F1 and i feel very happy, even when some people maybe irritating and we may not like them, but different people have different character, so i learn't to accept them and as long as they never really do anything to me, or harm me, i would not bother much with them as we said the more we get angry with people, the shorter our lifespan is so why bother with them:) Also went out with mu lan yu xin and jemina kathleen they all also, went back to school for meeting and events, so i will just post some pictures and let them do the talking:)

I have learn't to be more happy and put down more things, just be myself and who bother about whether you have someone special with you or not, they will come when the time is right and for those who have one, is a bonus and they should cherish them. As long as friends and families are with us all along we are much better than those people on earth right? Cherish what we have and all the other bonus will come as the right time that they should:)

Happy B-day

Just a post before today ends. Happy 17th B-day Lincoln:) Eh just want to wish you a happy birthday and good luck in your future A-levels:)

Okay shall be a short and sweet post, recently i dun noe what is wrong with me, i dun noe what am i doing and i am like blur blur de-.- Almost got knocked down by car three times already in this week. Maybe i should be more alert and stop being so blur and day-dreaming when i am walking, if i will really end up in the hospital one fine day. Tml is the start of F1 work, dun feel like working, but i wan the 300 bucks hais, but there is no free lunch in this wrold uh, will pack up my feelings and rest early tonight so i will be fresh for work. Okay these few days went out to town with jemmy, kat on wed and mu lan and yuxin on tues, so i have been wearing black for almost everyday haha, so addicted to black colour these few days. Okay let the pics do the talking, will be updating mostly after F1:)

Okay, update more recently, cuz have more time now compared to last time. Recently is still the same, i am trying to be as normal as possible and not to worry, i will make it de:) have to start 3 days work from next friday onwards, but dun feel like going which i also don't know why, maybe is bcuz of him barhx. But anyway, for the sake for 300 bucks i will endure through the 3 days and hope i won't do anything wrong haha:P

Everything is still the same, but what is different is i learn't how to put down a lot of things although some pictures and videos are still lingering, i can say out load that i am recovering in quite a good shape:) but regarding another person i don't like to say much and so just let things be barhx and i will take all the ending and accept everything. Now is studies that is bugging me, maybe i finished my module exams and i feel lazy to start studying for my Os so i am not working very hard, and i should accept any outcome that i received this time round cuz i did not really study and i could not blame anyone compared to last time, which i really did studied very hard for at least the last few months.

Anyway, brought a mini cookie monster as a bit of reward for mugging hard for the past 6 mths of I.T.E i will continue to work hard for my I.T.E and hope everything turns out well and i can enroll into SP:)

Finally finished all the final module exams, feel so happy hehe:) BZE is still manageable, but EPL is quite tricky so hais dun noe will pass or not leh:/ nvm uh, i tried my best already, so whether is pass or fail, lets just leave it to heaven barhx:)

Recently, i started to put down my feelings a lot a lot, and i feel so much happier:) You feels so much happier, as you let down something that you know will never ever be yours, you happy, he happy and you will feel much better. But i know myself i am able to put down, is bcuz of i know who, but i know nothing is going to happen so i just let things be natural barhx, taking train with him seriously brighten up my day. I seems to feel for childish ppl uh, maybe you can say that i belong to the childish section myself barhx haha:P

The poker card result keeps bugging me you are the least amount of cards that i have uh, but there is one obstacle between us, which i also know why luh, maybe it might be accurate but i am tired already, maybe by just leaving things to be will be better, sometimes i can't tolerate that temper of yours uh, you get angry too easily but maybe that is your personality barhx, so i should just learn to accept:) Anyway, i just want things to be as like now and i dun feel like moving anymore things, i am afraid that history will repeat itself and i will lose another good friend, so conslusion let just see how things will go for the next one year plus barhx:)

B4 i go, liike to post a pic recently have this addiction omg haha love it to the max:D

Start of school and moduel exams

Okay end of sweet holidays and start of revision week and moduel exams. Just got the bad news tat i flunked my excel hais tat is the price i have to pay for not playing real attention in class. I am over confident of myself bcuz of the previous test, and i am too nervous during the exam time:/

Oh well have to go for extra lessons tml and a retest on thurs. Believe in yourself LIM SHI JIE and you will be able to do it de jiayous and must make sure you learnt all the mistakes that you have made in the exam, okay that will be all regarding school stuff and everything else.

I feel that i am facing some problems which i oso dun noe what and why:( guess i have to try and understand what i wanted and to find out what is the real problem so i could feel better okay shall update till now and off to study and sleep:)

Updating my blog after like one week plus? Okay recently module exams are coming and must mug hard, somemore still have lots of other events such as F1, I do wedding day, and many more, so i will try and update as much as i can.

Okay today i learn how to see other's love life through poker cards, how cool is that OMG haha and i notice that the person you are thinking of, could only be seen on the first test and the upcoming ones won't be as accurate and you must be thinking of him/her throughout the whole process. I am still quite new but i am getting a hands on it and it is fun haha:) I did 3 test on different ppl and the results are suprising, but 90% is true man i have a shocked of my life. Oh well i must continue to see if all that results are true or not:)

Okay so holidays ended and school offically started and i feel that i not only have a busy holiday but also a busy school schedule. I guess that all events students are all like that barhx, you need more exposure and to have more experience b4 ppl are willing to hire you. In the events industry, is hard for newbeeis to start off but once everything gets on well, ppl will recognize your talent and planning skills, and things will get better.

I wanted to open my own cafe so i plan to take up courses next year learning how to be a barista:) i hope i will have a chance to work in startbucks and have a chance to understand how they work and learn well from them. I will work hard de jiayous:)

I really need a space for myself:/

Okay many things really happened these few days and i really dun noe what to do sia i feel so lost and irrtated. What should i do? Min tells me to ignore but i can't just simply ignore right? I know am in no position to interfer, but since he come to me himself, how can i pretend not to see anything and just dun reply and ignore...

I want everything to turn out good. is that really so hard? Why can't everybody just move on and get a life hais f sia:/ Even when i am having holidays, is not any better right? Nothing just seems right from the start argh wth how i wish somethings just never happened from the start:/

Okay since july i only have one post, i shall update more on august. Every week has been quite busy praying that holidays will come asap man, one more week of sch haha, went to clake quay- china town area yesterday with min and abi, abi intro de thailand food was awsome:) after a awesome lunch, walked to china town, hoping to visit the museum but end up, student price was 10 bucks hais can go bang wall man:P

Oh well, i am feeling less and less close with you now, maybe you are avoiding or is it just me, but idoits also can tell that there is some problem between us, i just wanna know what is the problem or is it just me who have the problem. I hate to be in this state, i want to know what is the problem and i want to solve the problem not by getting further and further away, if you really want things to be in this way, then i would just let it be but at least let me know what is the problem. Even when you dislike me in someway or another, i would still want to know why and how come so i could accept it and leave it.

Oh well tat is just for mow, going out soon will try to update as much as possible, maybe thinking of changing blog soon...

All i ever wanted to say to you...

Since you dun noe abt this, i will say all waht i wanna say here. Oh well, received your text last night, and yea uds what have happened and i knew it even more that is not possible...

I feels that i am getting harder and harder to know who and how is the real you. I am just got a feeling that we are getting distant yea. even when you are still willing to tell me lots of your stuff but i am just feeling that maybe we are just like tat? Somethhings i wanna keep to myself cuz i am afraid that you will be worried and i dun wanna scare you... But you can never sense why i am doing this, i know i shouldn't say out even the sentence but, it just slipped and i am trying to cover it up right? Just play along marhx, and you will forget abt it soon...

I can't deny that i have that feeling but i am controlling it and i am trying to curb it right? You may not sense it at all or you did but kept quiet for the sake of both of us and i am in the wrong to be thinking abt 2 ppl now, but you seems that you are taking over you noe? I am afraid to step inside once again , it always end up fruitless and also nothing good came out... But i can't stop it from happening, maybe i should try and numb myself but i tried to and to even distant away from you but you will always end up, giving me concern and making me laugh, even wanting to share my troubles, but how can i tell you when you are part of it? Maybe i should just let things be but my emotions dun allow that and nvm, i should have learn't from all the past incidents and grow up already...

It's hard to find someone who have the same feelings for you, but recently, i manage to find that some of my friends found them or can say still in progress in poly and i feel quite happy for them though.
Ppl once says that is hard to find that special someone in your life but believe in yourself, and you will find it, this is for a friend.

Friends ask me, how is my life, but what can i say? Haha have good points and also bad points... But then, life still have to go on right? No point sitting down there and thinking on how can i change the time and what have happened right? Is better to move on and also, think on how can i solve this current problem or situtation... Learn't all tat from the day i obtained my O-level results, is a hard process, but i manage to overcome it, and learn't a lesson on this.

B4 i go, wanna wish ganga a happy 17th B-day and will try to update soon:)

I am not feeling right... I knew it myself, I think is really the time i let go and move on, it's no point i continue being like tat... It won't do me any good and i am tired... Jem is right, better leave things as it is... Do everyone good and everyone will have a happy ending..

Had sakae with jemmy today, enjoyed the food like totally is super nice haha but my pocket have a big big hole haha... Anyway i got nth to write and i feel tat i should be more personal towards my stuff, so should be posting lesser and lesser on my blog...

I holiday mood le haha today last day of school, trying to endure finish lifeskills the three hours without killling myself haha...

Don't know why, getting more and more pissed off when i think abt going to school, even i have my own click of friends, i still feel that it is very weird to go school and i hate it... But i still have two years more to endure finish the course b4 i get my cert and move on to poly hais... I can only blame myself for doing badly in my O-levels so i have to suffer now... But i still have min abi jm stanley they all so i will undure finish my course and be more cheerful when i go school hais...

I feel that i am changing compared to the past me... I changed since my O-level results were out... I really dun mean to change but i have to endure hais... I just feel that it is not me man i think too highly of myself i keep telling myself, no matter how lousy you are, you will still have a poly to get in de dun worry lah... But it turned out to be different feeling so regertfully now, i should have worked doublely hard and make sure i pass my math hais... No point in saying all these now right? Guess i have to move on with my life and endure finish the 2 years hais...

I start to feel diff for some things hope that time will move on fast and by the time i reach half a year to one year i will not feel the diff le... For now guess i just have to try avoid it and not to get so close barhx... I am always ending up hurting myself so i have learnt my lesson this time to stay away as far as possible...

Finally, i am motivated to post something haha, recently busy with exams but thankfully, i passed my BZE and CMB, i did not bad..... OFA hehe i dun noe yet haha cuz today just finished but managed to do leh so i think should be okay de.....

Now feeling a bit relaxed, just wanna slow down my steps and wait to enjoy the upcoming holidays hehe:) so now only wanna work hard on my Os and relax a bit....... So now posting until here le wanna nappy le...... Hehe.......

A day filled with happiness......

Today was good day as i can feel, firstly there is no school, i have dinner with jemina, i met him at lakeside mrt and had JM entertaining me when i went to city hall to grow mushroom haha...... Also, SUPER GLUE never went ot tution OMG so happy haha.....

Woke up at ard 10 plus and had breakfast then prepare and bath the went to cafe to have my lunch and study. Reached there ard 12 plus had fish o spagettie and ice cuppicno haha i dun noe how to spell so 4get abt it.. Studied for 2 full hours on BZE and eng compo. Then JM called and then knowing i going to city hall he wanted to tag along haha.

Went to popular to help my mum buy stuff then trained to city hall reached there earlier then JM then went to HMV his way of appearing makes me laugh again haha.... I wanna say, thx sister for being such an entertaining friend when i went there to grow mushroom haha even when is like super hot and when you step into esplanade your face is even more dumb haha but you seriously made my day.

Walked around with him and to bugis then we trained ard 6. We are earlier then jammy and hiang teck so we trained to joon koon and then come back, i am like playing with his phone cam and it was so fun haha.... Then said buaiz to JM and alighted at lake side while he train back to jurong east..... When i reached jemmy and hiang teck was already at down stairs and i called them while jemmy sounded super duper excited cuz he was at lakeside my god i was like so shocked and me him and jemmy walked together. I have the chong dong to tell him some stuff but ended up i stopped myself i just can't pluck up the courage. Was late for tution cuz me and jemmy had dinner late then tution went on the fun way cuz SUPER GLUE is not there haha okay i am mean but is hard to explain......

Anw, had a best day of my life since the start of school and i enjoyed myself....:)

Why is it so hard to be a loner? Sometimes i just needed to be alone, is tat so hard? Oh well who says time passes by very fast? Everyday is a like a torture to me man......

I am not joking when i say i am struggling, i am still looking for the piece of wood in the vast ocean, for me to hold onto and make sure that i will be save..... but i still can't find it anywhere nearby, people say i am easy to get along with... But am i? I feel tat this is not the way man, i wanna to blend it, but i ended up being bounced out once and again...... Now every weekday is just like a plain torture to me...... Is hard to face it man but i have no choice at all...... Who ask me to end up like tat kast year? I have no one to blame but myself seriously......

Now i cannot do anything but to pray hard tat two years will passby in a blink of an eye and everything will end soon also i have a chance to leave..........

It is another typical sunday, the first post in may....... Oh well sch started for almost like a month, and everything turns out still okay barhx but it just feel quite different as my sec sch days, even i have made a few good friends, i sould still miss my sec sch buds....... I noe is no point thinking tat would it be better if i am inside a poly, but sometimes these thoughts just come into my mind without i noticing myself.......

Now my life is filled with tution on mondays, fridays and sundays oso i have school at the same time, recently just found out on how i am still thinking of you, even when i thought tat it would be lesser after sch reopened and i have things to work on, but is all fakish, my mind is till working i will only be able to forget on the moment that i die and it stooped functioning........

I have became more and more pig man, i slept till 12 plus today and i am still able to sleep haiz..... But maybe sleeping is the only way out for me to forget abt things barhx...... Ms ema is leaving and i do feel a bit upset, as she is the type of teacher i wouldn't thought of finding at I.T.E cuz i thought that they wouldn't care much less abt the students, she is a very thoughtful and nice teacher i must say and i do hope that she will still come back to see us when she is free haha..... Cuz we dun have the money to fly to australia haha........

That will be all for today haha, b4 i forget, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY 2 GRANDMA AND MUMMY, ALSO TO ALL THE MUMS ON EARTH......

Posting again, can't believe tat only opened school for 3 weeks and things started to go wrong already haiz... There is more drama in sec sch here man i dun really know how to handle such a situtation, there is wrong in everyone this time.

Oh well, i have nth to say anyway, i just wanna be neutral to everyone and i feel tat no one should be left out de... Is my thinking too childish or is the peaceful i wanted too much too ask? I seriously dun know, i feel tat we work out quite well as a group but maybe is just misunderstanding tat is causing the problems, i feel too tired to settle things anymonre, i have enough of this stuff back in sec sch and i dun really wanna see it again in an institiuet, but guess tat this kind of stuff may happen anywhere i go is like i can't stop it from happening......

Not in the mood to say anyomore, hope tat everything will turn out fine between things and everything will turn out well, and let me finish my studies in peace barhx..... Meeting jemmy and tian tml feeling excited cuz can get to see them again whee............

Posting again-.- feeling very low this few days, wich i oso dun noe why-.- but anyway, now school start le, i am oso much more busy, means lesser time to think abt some things. But when i am travelling in the mrt alone, my brain will just run wild and many images will just flash in my mind and i dunnoe how to stop thinking abt it man.

I dun noe how to start talking.... I must admit that i am quite an emo girl, and i tend to keep things within myself, but this time, i just dunnoe how to start to talk abt it.. Even when i know that there is a whole bunch of gang waiting and willing to hear what i wanna say, but is just hard to spell it out anyway, i just have to try and settle it myself.

Have sch activity tml, a eco concert-.- dun feel like going, but i have no choice man, attendence is complusary, have to go but lucky i do not have to wear uniform if not i will sur go insane. Anyway, tat is all for now, will try to updat as much as possible.

B4 i forget, "HAPPY 17TH B-DAY XIN & QI DAR...."

Whee............ Tml have to wake up at 6 and i am still blogging haha, just a update on how my school have been, it have pass a week, and i felt much better in regarding to connecting with my class, they are hipyer ppl man, is not hard to get along with them though.

Dun noe is it due to me not studying for 51/2 mths or words look like aliens to me haha, all those business stuff is driving me crazt man haha but will work hard to get good grades for my course and oso will be working hard for my retaking of the big Os haha.

Oh well, tat is for until today, will try to update soon man till then barhx nights;)

Hey hey hey, first post of april 2010 haha, next week will be the first day of school, not so sure abt how am i going to survive the first day of school, but i will try my best, and i will be nice to everyone..... Hiaz school habben even come and i already start to have the jitty feeling... -.-

Without my gang and my peeps, i have to go to the new wnvironment all alone.... No choice, i can only blame myself for doing so badly in my Os, oh well i have another chance so i am going to strike hard and make sure i will do very very well......

All the memories i have with my buddies will forever be with me, as i face the new environment and place i have to go jiayous shijie:P

All i ever wanted, was just a simple life, average reults, good family and friends relations. But non of these were happenning, is just that all of my life is turning up side down, but there is nothing much which i could do about it......

I know that the way which i keep habouring on my results, will not do anything to help, but is just that as everyday passby, seeing all my friends preparing for poly, my life is just not turning better, having to face the fact that everyone gets to a poly and the feeling is just hard to explain, but i cannot blame anyone expect myself, sometimes i just want to seal myself in my own house, but now this house is making me feel like turning away from them.

Even my mum claim that she understands and will not blame me, i just don't feel they way that she does i can still sense that deep inside, she is still blaming me still feels upset... The things that she said keep whiring in my mind " Mummy thought that no matter how lousy is your results, you can still get into republic poly, but in the end..... Hiaz nevermind just go on with your school" I am feeling equally upset abt my results, and i just can't feel the fact that she understands my feelings or maybe is just that i am too senstive. No one is feeling any worse than me in the world okay?

I am just getting more and more pissed off and i hate myself to the core, even when ppl will think that i am too over and should get over my results now, but is not them, so no one will ever understands....

Trying to numb myself...

Hiaz..... What a way to start my post haha, oh well as peeps can see from my title, i am getting more and more upset each day, which i oso dun noe why.. Half of myself wanna start school early, another half reculant to go haha i must see mental doc le.

I guess is that i still cannot get over some stuff, and i have to face the fact tat right from the start, nth was real, i have been deciving myself all along, is just tat i dun noe how to face it myself, guess tat i have get used to it myself.. Oh well, sometimes it doesn't help, i just have to continue my smile and i guess none of them are reading so is okay....

My mood is not any better, i know tat feeling like tat now is not helping and is a very childish way for me, but i just hope to have a place for my own and just say whatever i wanna say, sometimes i find it hard to face the guys... I feel much better when i am alone cuz haiz.... Nvm, i will try to adapt it myself..........

Long time no update haha. Today updating for yesterday, firstly, wanna wish samuel a happy 17th B-day. Although we have a lousy BBQ and almost can say is a failure, we enjoyed ourself to the max and we are a bit crazy haha.

Firstly, went out to buy two shaker to spray on peeps haha, oso a special party hat for samuel so he will look more special haha. Then after i buy those stuff, went to jemmy's grandma's house to collect the beehoon her mum cook for us. Super duper delicious man, then went to take 187 to meet hiang teck to buy the ice for the drinks, have to wait for him while sitting at the busstop. Then he msg and went into 7-11, i have a shock to see him in short pants haha tat part was super duper funny then he give me the look-.-.

Went to his house, and wanted to start decorating, but it started raining-.- hiang teck go back home to bring down the stuff tat we need to use.Finally the rain stopped, and we can start doing the stuff, later jemmy and malcolm came and join us, then we started to decorate while malcolm went to fetch the others. Then everything was done up and we started to party haha, everyone was sitting down and chatting while hiang teck and jemmy get into their "usual fights" we all just stay back and enjoy the good show haha. Then me and hiang teck went to take a bottle of spray each and we started to aim at samuel haha, he was like so shocked haha fun fun fun.... Then everyone kanna expect clever me haha, then i wanted to play the see-saw but was end up being builled by hiang teck, poor me i am in pain.....

Then the food came and hiang teck started the fire,but it was more of a failure than a success cuz due to we as the inexperience peeps, My cooking was fabilious man haha they say the food is nice of cuz lah, done by me leh... We started playing later and jemmy is being dumped into the pool, by who everyone can guess haha then hiang teck was dragged in by jemmy too haha too bad then, all of us was dry and we did not even change at the end hehe...

Anyway, had a great day and in the end was sent home by hiang teck, yi tian and sam, which they later send yi tian home too... Went home to bath and sleep, have a very fun day....

Recently too engrossed into my drama...... So now updating in my blog as the first post in march. Well life have to go on since i have to start school soon in a month's time? But haiz many things still keep haunting me, i just felt tat even when i tried to stop myself from thinking abt it, it just went through my mind.

Firstly, family problem not having a very good terms with my parents compared to last time, maybe is because of my lousy grades tat is souring my relationship with them, or they might think tat i am a disgrace to them barhx..... I dun noe and i dun wanna know too oso talking to someone is oso not heliping too...... Maybe i should just ignore it......

Secondly, is him, just when i thought he have the same thinking, is just not the way things turned out as i expected, but what can i say? It might be the fact tat is just a one sided thinking of mine right from the start, i should just forget abt it and go on he have his own life and i have mine, if we are fated we will meet again in the future.

Thirdly, is my school, well is pathetic enough tat an express student have to end up in I.T.E but i just dun noe how to face the school and the new ppl, i felt tat my classmates are nice but well, how my school goes on will have to be dependent on myself barhx..... Will have lesser time to update once my school starts...

That will be all barhx have to go prepare for work and tml still have to report to school.

Posting again... I am excited, cuz I GOT MY PAY AGAIN hehe haha okay i am lame -.- Now working and outings and reading...... I know my mood is not very good these few days, and it have never been better oso..... So if i did anything wrong, pls dun blame me okay?

I have said bye to some things and it will be sealed forever, cuz i believe tat hanging onto it will not do me any good, so just burry them inside my heart, and if they are meant to be, it will be:D For now, i just have to continue my own life without.......

Tat is all for now, tata......

Posting here, cuz long time nv update le. Okay lah oso not very long haha only a few days....... Now my life just revolve ard work and outings.... I feel so..... Nvm, no one will understands how i am feeling anyway... I oso nv wanna talk abt it.

Well i am feeling tired but i can;t cry, maybe there is some mental problem with me or what i dun care anymore. But working tat time i receive 2 angbaos from customers well which makes my day and i feel much more better although is not a lot of money, just 2 bucks and 5 bucks it just make me feel happier cuz tat is one of a encouragement tat customers gave me which makes me feel tat my service was great. Haha i can be promoter seriously so i won;t go out of job then haha.

Okay tat is all i wanna say, got nth else le, hope my mood will get better soon or i will become an insane girl walking ard haha........

Had a " cooling" day

Let's start today with the moment i wake up.... Okay went to clementi to meet mable to get the keys to open the door of guardian. Then stand at the mrt and chat with her for a while then walked to the shop and open up for business. Started working and serving the customer haha then waited for time to pass..... Also for mable's staff to come at 12 plus when i am talking to a customer a guy not bad looking walked in, tell me is the staff he smiled at me i melt to the ground man... He not bad looking can? Somemore is doctor in his own country, come here to study engineer OMG i bei dian dao liao haha.

Then done handover with him, then took my bag and left, b4 i leave, he smiled at me again and say "Thank you for your help, hope to see you again, is nice knowing you..." I was like OMG..... I said back " Your welcome, is nice knowing you and hope to see you again" Oh.... Any girl marry him next time sure super good one. Although he is short, he is taller then me lah.... haha his basic pay not bad lor oso super nice..... haha enough of day dreaming, i will only see him once haha.

Okay bused home, and rushed through to prepare and meet jemmy to go laoshi house. I wore the off shoulders for the 1st time, i felt so bare cuz nvm... But jemmy said is not very bao lu nvm i shall wear it lesser and just stick to tees and sneakers haha..... Then saw Mr tan and chatted with him OMG, i missed the times we had tution man...... He gave us a red packet with 10 bucks OMG, he is too generous haha.... Then went with jemmy to have lunch of western downstairs then went to Jp and jemmy keep hearing me winning abt someting haha...... Then shopped around then meet vanessa at 198 there to go to yu xiang's party.

We met then saw yu xiang then zhao fang followed by tuckk. Then walked to safara and chatted along the way, then had dinner at jack's place then followed by some photo taking around safara then zhao fang bu xiao xin stepped into the water which shocked everyone but things are over and okay liao. Then ended the whole trip and me miner tuckk and vanessa walked a good long deal to take the bus number 99. We also chatted along the way and then took the bus and went home reached home at around 10 plus 11 like tat. That is my day for the 18 of feb.

B4 i forget, " HAPPY 17TH B-DAY TO YU XIANG & YU TING"

A happy day:D

HAPPY 17TH B-DAY MU LAN also, happy new year peeps...... Okay went to celebrate Mu lan's Birthday, and we watched the movie valentines day, it was a blast, it showed the different type of love between couples, and oso how people should forgive one another out of their love for them.

The show was quite funny, oso with some touching parts, i am surprised tat i nv cry haha oh well, i enjoyed the show anyway haha..... Now studying at night, going to bai nian and outings in the day is quite busy haha. I hope tat sch will start soon so i will have something to work on and be busy with haiz........

Another day gone........

A new post here, b4 i lazy post hehe. Today woke up at 7.30 even when the shop have to open at 8. Cuz i am too tired liao CMI man, have to sleep....... Waited for edwin as usual to open the door, for business then, he came and work started. Me love tuck man, he gave me a surprise by dropping by and see me.... WHEE..... XP. Super happy tat he can walk again and dun hab to use crutches anymore, even when is a bit limping........ He & jemmy seriously make my day:D

Okay, today's work suppose to end at 4 then, will have a small gathering, but it dragged to 7 and we are left to having dinner then went home:( so sadd. Hui qi de baking skills improved, and her cookies are delicious hehe..... But something happen to her and better not talk abt it here.......hehe. My day was tired, and i am furious, but in the end, everthing turned out well, and all thx to jemmy's support and tuckk who made my day...... Also, he aim to become a traffic police shocking hor? Dun noe he said for fun or real.

Now, my life will have to be filled even without something...... Now studying at night and sometimes working in the day, or going outings even with all these activites, one part of my mind will still be habouring on something, and the more i think abt it, is harder to get it off my mind. Oh well, just hope tat school will reopen soon, and i will have lesser things on my mind to think of cuz my mind would be occupied haiz....................

Herm just posting here b4 i sleep. Today went to jp for lunch with jemmy and hiang teck then went to town, feel upset tat the shoe i fancy does not have my size anymore haiz so saddenning. Then went to plaza sing and walk around aimless, since we have nth much to buy anyway haha.

Went to work at around 6 like tat. When i wnet in, saw edwin sitting at the pharmacy there, waiting for me to come so can brief me what to do. Then he said " Shijie arh, today got the promotion when you spend 30 dollars and above in a single receipt, you will get 20 percent off storewide, expect for selected items like: Milk powder, diapers, newspaper & magazines, promontion items and pharmacy stuff." I answered back" okay, so you wan me to work today for?" Then he said " i want you to be my promoter today with a stupid gin like this:D my reaction was like -.- okay, i thought whay need three people work today sia.

The reason he asked me to work is because he said i can talk a lot, and he wan me to use this special technique to bring up the sales today. Hiaz knew tat he have nth better for me when he asked me whether i could work today or not ass hole lor. Then me and hongshu and yitian started working and oso crapping at night me and yitian keep using the giraffe to "attack" hongshu when he do something wrong haha. First time in my whole guardian working life, i enjoyed working in guardian man. How i wished everyday got this promotion then can work with hongshu and yitian cuz we three make a very good god family working duo haha.......................

Lastly, i still misses somethings in my life, which i am thinking whether if they are doing well or not in my life. Oh well, i can't force all those stuff and i just hope tat we will get to see each other soon.........

Oh well, adapting to a life without you is hard, espically since when i have to endure the stress at work, and all those unreasonable customers. Can't they just let us go? Must they be so typical abt all the stuff? Even worse, blame us for other store's mistake. Hiaz... No choice, working in the service line is just like tat customers are always right and we can't argue haiz.....



Now my life can only use one word to describe. " Atrocious" what more else can i say? Haiz i will hope to end this life soon and start school soon........ Even when i am going to a higher nitec haiz..... Life in singapore is hard, if i have another choice, i would hope tat my next life will not be born in singapore, but a country which is more simple and life will not be so hetic and idoitic.



Tat will be until here for today then..... I do not noe, when will be the next time i will be posting again, hope tat it will be soon then.

Today is the last day..... Now when walking alone, i could even feel tat you are beside me pullling my hair or pushing my head....... Oh well, all things will come to an end anyway but hope tat we will not be an end.......

Went to bowling and west coast park and i am darm tired.... But one thing i must say, west coast park is seriously very cooling and beautiful at night. Maybe will sneak up there one day by myself and enjoy this cooling air haha and one thing not to forget is hiang teck and jemmy playing the swing tat time, super hilarious man haha. Both of them is trying to not let each other come down the swing by pulling of hair, and tickling and oso taking of the slippers. Me and samuel just stood at the other end, and enjoy our free entainment hehe very mean hor?

Conclusion, have an enjoyable day and hope tat peeps will meet at least once a week, to enjoy our meeting up and syupid stuff hehe.

Happy B-day to me!!!

Hehe, i am seventeen, and i am quite sad to shake off my sweet sixteen de life espically since i miss E9.

Went out with usual crazy peeps today, fun like crazy at K-Box haha HT was like making ghoustly sound effect. Also, his high and malcolm's low duet was like a blast man haha. Still few more minutes b4 my B-day end wanna finish soon.

Gotten my O-level results, and is not very good. I decided to start my Higher nitec life and also, i will retake my O-level subjects for science math and eng. I will workhard and jiayous to cope with my new life. For Jemmy tian qi mal ht sam and all my other good friends and senior, dun need worry abt me anymore i will face up to my life and work hard de, i will get the long way and strive up to uni.

Will be very busy soon, and have lesser time to use com and go out, guess i will have to give up my social life le haha. But i noe tat my friends, will help me and to get into my social life de haha.


Jiayous peeps
shijie-.-

2nd day of 2010

Hehe, today is jie de B-day, firstly, wanna wish her a happy 20th B-day, hope she will enjoy her starting of the number 2 in her age... XP.

Now, for the past 2009, a lot of thing happened, but still have sweet memroies as well as horrible memories. But i am greatful for what had happened on the last day of 2009, it ended it with a perfect timing......... Ok now back to the real thing, feeling quite stressful nowadays cuz, a lot of things went into my mind and i did'nt know what to do, or how to think anymore......

There will be work tml, hope tat everything will soon get better barhx, and work won't be so horrible anymore, with endless stocks to clear, endless paperwork and front facing.........