Last few post 4 2009

Hey Hey, last few post b4 2009 ended. Tuckk finally ok le, hope tat none of this will ever happen again, last few days my mood was like super duper upset, and this will be one of my worst christmas ever. Well anyway, tml is the class chalet, will not be attending cuz due to work and tuck's B-day so here i wanna say a huge sprry to the e9 peeps, even if i can't turn up for the chalet, my heart will be with you guys de.


FINALLY: HAPPY 25TH B-DAY TO MY BELOVED DAI YANG TIAN:D

Very very tired recently, tired of work, tired of myself and somebody. Long time not updating le, anyway update le oso nobody cares. But never mind, at least i found a place to vent out everyting i wanna say.

Have been thinking a lot espically since after sunday, i didn't know what to do anymore. I am seriously very very tired le i didn't wanna continue anymore i just wanna find one spot and just rest there for as long as i want. Oh well, maybe my life is due to be like this, anyway, christmas is coming, and malcolm's B-day is coming and tuckk's B-day is coming...... There is so much things for me to start preparing for, guess i should not think so much now.

Lastly, hope everything will be well, and i can enjoy these three special days de celebration......

Well is december finally. Now my life is almost filled with just working and have not much time with mny friends, feel like they are further away from me. Well i can only blame myself barhx, went to K-boxing and basketball with my 2 aunt and my cousin. The trip was fun filling and aunt surprise us to say that they booked tickets for New Moon we all was like shocked, cuz she nv say anything abt watching movie. She say this is a reward for us, for all of us finishing exams i must say sorry to huiqi le, cuz i finished watching New Moon liao. It kind of dissappoint me sia, so many parts from the book is being cut off in the movie a lot of exciting parts are gone, and the movie last fir 2 hours man, i am sitting down there and i thought only one hour have passed, that goes to shows time flies barhx.

Oh b4 i forget, Happy 17th B-day norman haha:)

Busy working and watching dramas, so do not have the time to post. Anyway, i post for me to see only haha ok now back to the topic. Recentl.y working at gardian, basically all the work are manageable, only the closing and the handover is a bit "WA" super long steps and can die lor. Now focusing on workiing and my drama Gong Xin Ji, although my sis say is super lousy cuz every episode, got people die haha but then this is reaility marhx. Last time it is hard to survive in the palace and everybody, have to scheme to be able to survive in the palace, but in the show there is a deciving part is when how can be there such a nice person, totelly flawless and super duper kind lor although is deciving but haiz it at least shows that there are kind souls in the world haha. Anyway, just post till here need to prepare to go work le.

Today went for job interview, if everything goes well, maybe starting work on friday after red camp. After grad night, i miss E9 like free, thinking of the new environment that i may face when get into poly, freaks me out i dun wanna be seperated with Eniners. Well, all the good things and memories will come to an end one time. Just hope that we will never ever lose contact......

For someone, i dun noe if you will read this or not, but jus wanna say, thx for letting me noe that you have exist in this world, even you did not even say anything till the end, i dun noe if we will still stay in contact or not, if we are fated, we shall meet again :).

Biking day with laoba & PPW

2dae i super enjoy the period when i go biking with malcolm loaba and ppw. Shared a lot of stuff and we cycle through Bedok jetty, and changi beach. Bedok jetty is very cooling and we enjoy the breeze. Ok now lets get into the real topic, when we first started cycling, laoba and ppw used the double bike, and we raced but, i lost cuz i one person and both of them is guys and somemore they have more strength. Then we go on the same pace. and then we reached a slope suddenly, laoba feel very chi li cuz ppw is not peddling, i behind down laughing then have to control myself, if not i will fall off the slope. Then suddenly laoba turned behind then he shouted "PPW JIA ZUA" haha which means that he "eat snake", which means he lazy. Then when we reach a path, we saw a group of malays, ppw and laoba let them pass. Then they say both of them is gay, the they also scold them idoit in malay. Then laoba say "Do you know why i learn to cycle in one hand?" then we ask why? Then he say cuz can use one hand to point middle finger. Then ppw laughing like mad then i was like -.-. Then ppw raise up both hand and point middle finger then once again i was like -.-. Finally we reached Bedok jetty then we rest there and enjoy the sea breeze. Soon Kirby and Yu ting came cuz they Roller Blading, they rest there while we three continue clcying to Changi there. At first, we cycle right up to the high way then we see nobody is in sight then, we turned back to ride back then we stopped at changi beach to sit at the rock, the scenery was super beautiful and the three of us screamed, with ppw and laoba screaming .............. things. Then it started to drizzle a bit, then we cycle back at fast speed, then the rain started to stop, we enjoy our way back and then we took breaks here and there. The sand castle area was super beautiful, when we reached to the bicycle returning area, then we decided to continue down the other way to another two jetty. But then the jetty is not as beautiful as the Bedok jetty. Anyway i enjoyed the bicycling trip with ppw and malcolm they helped me a lot and the day was beautiful but there are some bad memories which i dun wan to say anymore anyway thx to ppw and laoba hu make my day a bit more happier.

This is my last post b4 O-levels, i will only continue to update after my O-level. Recently, cannot say nth is going in my head, since the start of this week, my mood have not been very good, somemore working hard for my O-levels. I tend to have mood swings now and then, but promising myself not to, let it out on innocent people as much as possible. Now going take study leave on thursday, to unwind myself and gear up for the upcoming O-level and also art work. Work hard everybody, good luck and we can enjoy and relax ourself after the exam.

Today i seriously hate myself to the core.

Firstly, i quarreled with jem, and i am super digraceful, but we are sisters linked so ok le in abt less than 10 mins? Secondly, i hate myself because i lack of courage, to do even such a simple thing, thinking that i am such a failure. Thirdly, my studies sux like hell hate that i am so lousy compared to other people. But after sch study with tuckk while waiting for qi, feel much better le all thx to tuckk, he and his funny way in coaching me math haha. Hope to study with him soon haha study with tuckk can learn lots of things and relax as well.

Oh b4 i 4get, even if this is not my day, still wanna wish Lincoln
a happy 16th B-Day hope he will enjoy his B-Day.

Flashing of memories in my mind.............

Today, i get to know something, and finally it helped me to link back to all the problems, that i have been thinking about and cant solve.

It have been super duper shocking for me, i did not expect some things, to be happening around and it have hurt someone that is quite important to me. Small pieces of memories keep flashing inside my head, and i finally manage to piece them together, i need time to digest it. I will pretend not to know anything.

Pls do not ask me what have happen, i will keep it to myself, even if i hope that i had never known it..............................

Feeling very very stressed and tied up lately. Wanna just drop down everything, and jus have a good sleep. Everything in my world seems to be going the wrong way, firstly, art is pressing on me very very hard. Secondly, there are still math which i can't do also science. Also, there are somemore personal problems that is a burden, everyday, have to think of so many things, on my mind. How i wish that i can have some moral support..................................

Also, Happy 16th B-Day to eguene pung


Too tired to think or do anything anymore....................

Happy teacher's day to all my teachers.

Firstly, thankk you for teaching me throught the whole of my education period. Just wanna tell you guys thank you and a happy teachers day, enjoy your holiday barhx.

I wanna say a big thank you, to my mummy daddy & sister, they have been cheering me up, and supporting me since the start of the year. I wanna say, a big thank you, and also i love you without you guys, my life wont be so peaceful, you guys let me feel the warmth at home, and letting me know that, wherever i am tired, i will aways have you guys around to support me.

I LOVE MIROTIC WOOHOO................ UNDER MY SKIN HAHA

Super duper stressed recently, many cher is pressing for work yet they, nv give us the time to finish up all the work, seriously they think that we are roborts? I got a feeling i will fall sick very very soon, with all these lack of sleep. Now mood swings until very serious, got a feeling will cry at the slightest thing. Who ccan help me to get away from all these even if this is only for one day.......................................................

Today, super duper pissed with some ppl hu dun have a heart, lung, liver.
But anyway, today reach home late, there are some happy moments and lousy moments 2dae, well tml have oral, so shall sleep early then. Wish me luck for 2morrow barhx jiayous.

Gotten back O-level paper 2dae. Glad tat i do not have to retake, feeling super duper tired cuz not enough sleep and also, mugging for art and O-level. Maybe will be lesser updates, but will try to drop by as often.

Jiayous peeps.

Firstly: HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAE SINGAPORE. I LOVE MY COUNTRY.

Feeling very tired today, went to ah ma hse to party haha. Then sat my uncle's taxi back. receive lots of sms and call that i am on tv haha, but it is a pity i nv saw it myself. If not nice i think i will be laughed at, wondering how am i going to face the sch peeps on tuesday haha. Anyway, who cares now going mug hard for ART and prelims, final submisson is end of the month arh............... this is so crap.

Wish everybody good luck for prelims and hoping to see everybody doing well for both prelims and O-levels.

JIAYOUS GUYS CHIONG ARH................ HAHA

WHAT A LOUSY DAY

Today would be one of the worst days of my life. First day of the morning, was being ranted on by that toopid cher, then some ppl still maked me pissed, and had to make me suan back then happpy. is like whats wrong man? Somemore, math at the evening super dupier tiring and my head is bursting with stuff. Wonder when i can get out of this misery.

Firstly, b4 the day end, wanna wiah weng leong : HAPPY 16th B-DAY

Secondly, just read the class blog and thinking a lot, maybe i am also at wrong too. i will now apologise to the class. i finally understood that there is nothing such as one persons fault, i admit i may also do something wrong. lets just hope that everybody, forgets everything and get back to the way that it is used to be and be the once untied class again.

Thirdly, feeling very tired so haha i am going to sleep le tml got sch nitex and buaiz.

Having SERIOUS mood swings recently. so warning to many peeps, i dont really know what or when i will explode, if i really did that, hope everyone will forgive me. Of cuz i will try to contro; myself, haha got a feeling i am experencing geng nian qi, too much things bottled up in my heart, so having mood swings is oso not what i wanted. Will work hard to control myself de and wanna wish my baby niece kai ning happy 1st month.

HAPPY B-DAY TO DARLINGG KIM BUM

today is your 20th bithday, even if you dun noe hu i am i would still support you till the end. hope that you would have a good birthday today, really love ya jiayous for your carreer and i will always be your supportive fan.

Love ya:

A few more to the reopening of sch. enjoying my time rotting at home 2dae, woke up at 7.30 and went riding till 8.30. then went to market with mum and learn how to choose veggies, then came back bath and now rotting in front of the com. finally finish watching [Boys Over Flowers] I LUV KIM BUM............. haha hab to go study as promised to mum afterwards haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAE JEMINA AI AI LOVE YA

Finally you turned 16 sorry for not able to celebrate for you today, but will make it up to you de when you cum back ok? love ya and enjoy today with your family, haha rmb to stay happy everyday ok haha smile.

HAPPY 16th B-DAY TO DARLING GANGA

jus wanna say happy bithday, and good luck for your O-levels, hope you like and would use the present i gave you, this post is for you only haha.

Today went to band for 2 hours then go home chang and went to jurong point with yi tian and yu ting. Shopped around for a while then went to IMM with yi tain, let me say out something quite funny here it goes: me and yi tian went to comics connection, we went to the 2R pictures of artist, yi tian saw lots of jae joong and DBSK, she choose quite some then we oso helped pei shan to look for kim bum de, then when we go pay at the counter, i said "wa you buy so many later the guy (refers to the cashier) think that you are crazy." Then the guy said "almost lah " then we two stared at each other then burst out into laughter haha ............This guy darm funny lor, then b4 we paid, we counting how many cards we got, then we got 9 then one is 0.80 cents then i said "9x8 how much?" then the guy say "54" when he walked pass then we like shocked also haha......
this guy super funny can?

Finished my chinese O-levels today, felt quite relieve if nothing goes wrong, hope can obtain an A1. Fustrated over some problems as i just can't figure out why, are things improving and suddenly it changed overnight? Maybe i was too sensetive barhx but hu can answer my question? I think only god knows the answer barhx...............................................................

updating now cuz mum dun allow me to use com, so wont be updating for too much then hope everybody jiayous for monday de chinese O-level paper. Also haiz feeling vexed now why everything is so near yeat so far haiz?

TODAY IS MY MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY WANNA SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY AND ME AND JIE JIE LUV YOU HAHA................

today is one of the happiest days of my love and i think i will really get diabetics lor haha finally finish MYE liao can relax a while more going cut hair liao can't wait for monday to cum so can go zoo with some e9 pps haha hope i will not get diabetics barhx haha

today is syf felt very nervous when i first left sch to go republic poly for syf finished the competion, and was like sitting there to wait for the results it was tortureous finally we heard the results "HM1 HARMONICA OMSOME YUHUA SECONDARY SCHOOL: SILVER " my heart sanked into an endless cave i was like, "WHAT? SILVER?" and we have one more big big surprise that all the other 7 schools all gotten silver man which means the whole of singapore gotten silver. can't say tat i not dissappointed as i was at least expecting a gold man but haiz............ felt useless and other than blaming my self, i really hab no comments liao.

suddenly felt that i had never feel happy in my life for the past 16 years that i lived haha i maybe crapping but i suddenly feel that maybe i had lived the past 16 years in vain man. sometimes have to put on a fake smile to show that i am not unhappy. feel sick recently guess i am going to fall sick soon but just hope is not on my syf day i pray hard..........................

THIS PART IS FOR YI TIAN : HAPPY 16 BIRTHDAE 2 EUU HAHA MUACKS..........

Today is 2 important invent for me first 4E9 WON THE ANNUAL SPORTS DAY AS CHAMPION CLASS FOR BOYS SECTION. proud of euu guys and love ya continue to work hard man and the second thing is yi tian's birthday she finally turned 16 haha.

After sports day went to watch movie with yi tian,jemina,kelvin,kathleen and yu ting we watch confessions of a shopholic very funny sia. yu ting was late and we did a little trick on her kelvin shifted his place and backfaced yu ting when she came, we bluffed her that kelvin went to look for her and now we lost contact with him, but actually we only want test if yu ting reconginse kelvin of not then continuing the story she went to call kelvin we thought he would answer but he never then yu ting was feeling anxious well the rest of us laugh like siao. Then kelvin turned around and yu ting found out that she was being cheated haha surprise for her tats a little trick we played on her for being late haha.

today feels a bit sickly but still have to take care of my even more sick sister haiz poor me and daddy and mummy both not at home so i will have to take care of the chores and buying of lunch and dinner also still hve to attend tution later haiz............ recently feels very down because of mock exam results did badly expect for english i was quite shocked by my own results too, haha finally my english have improved although i fail my science, i improved at least 10 to 20 marks compared to last time so i will still have to keep working hard for myself .

today was a very busy day..........................

Recently keep hearing his news and i just found out that i am not really as strong as i thought i am i had never really forget him in my heart even if that had really passed like few months thought that most of what people had say time will heal the thinking and wounds that one has but does it really happened? i don't even know what i am thinking about him and if i see him on the streets what will i say? I am tired of thinking le i think of giving everything up and just run away including my GCE O levels.............

2dae SUX SUX & SUX i am very very angry sia how can that toopid teacher accuse me of cheating? when i didn't even talk in the first place. I hate her man i was so embrassed sia lucky we are not in the hall even if i fail, i would never resort to cheating during such a exam i want to be honest with myself since i am already taking my O-level this year haiz got no mood since just now. But wanna thanks all the friends who talked me just now thanks to jemina, yi tian, yu ting, ganga,fong may, xin yi,marjorie,kathleen and many more sorry if i left out your name but thanks to all of your i feel much better le.

long time never post le firstly let me wish my punch bag (Faiz) happy birthday first even though is a bit early haha recently studying quite hard for O-Levels will jiayous de hope to get into the course i wanted haha

long time nv update so now posting 2dae was feeling quite uphappy over the chemistry lab incident because yesterday our class is the only class that is doing experiment and use the lab we are oso the only one who hab lesson with mrs thong then 2dae mrs thong suddenly tell our class to admit who hab stolen the chemical of sulphur hydroxide but is like wat de who want to steal that stupid chemical and if we are not going to admit the school will do a invegestion on us is like haiz why mus they accuse us?

broke down again 2dae after band there was a meeting i broke down and almost flood harmonica room firstly i wanted 2 say very very sorry 4 everyone present at the meeting i hab spoilet your mood 4 valentines day and i am very very sorry. i feel darm sadd sia keep thinking "actually am i really very selfish?" maybe i am barhx 4 tat point of time and i did'nt think abt the situation and i am only thinking of myself? i feel so tooty and upset so right until the end in the conculsion i found tat maybe i am too selfish i will change and try 2be more ji zi and help out barhx i will bear with it haiz only left with 2 to 3 months and i will be graudating liao why not make it a nice and happy ending and jus let everything jus pass.

enjoyed yu xiang de brthday party although i was quite late sorry 2 yu xiang abt tat haha but i kanna smeared half of my face with cream lor ok not funny and gurmeet and tuckk hab cream and chocolates on their face haha so conclusion i still not the worse one they suffered more than i do haha but did'nt really enjoyed much because of wat happen in the afternoon but i still like the party anyway jus wanna thanks yu xiang laopo 4 tat nice food and party and hope tat euu will not be angry over i cuming late haha.

now super bad mood stuck at the BLOODY VECTORS haiz hu can save me frm this vector tunnel? i going siao liao jus feeling tooty lor sia lah but lets not talk abt unhappy things 4 now.
2dae very happy i received my 2nd math test and i PASSED it haha feel super duper happy sia add up both of my math paper i actually got a B4 haha first time in my life man haha if i pass one more common test i will be able 2 pass my ca1 haha tat is the best news i hab ever receive in years man haha but i will still continue 2 work hard de i will prove tat i will do well 4 O-level de
and gd luck 4 band in the syf haha

THX mu lan 4 the birthdae gift i like it a lot really haha luv euu haha.

i feel more and more unbalanced in tat "PLACE" but i jus cannot help it there is no one tat can listen 2 me i jus feel tat i did not really fa xie wan lor i still feel the same i will tolerate 4 only a few more months i will not ever cum bk again the only reason i will be back i think most of them noe lor i jus hate it man since i came up i jus feel tat this "PLACE" is no longer the place i enjoy and loved anymore i jus feel very fed up tat i hab 2 go but nvm 4 my future i will tolerate jus feel tat it is SO SO SO SO VERY UNFAIR OK i hate it and i think the class is oso making me feel quite fucked up again cuz of some ppl and reasons i will not say as most of my class ppl are very nice and funny and i enjoy being classmates with them haha thx 2 some of the guys in class and all my girfriends haha.................

very very happy that i hab 4 days of holiday 4 me 2 rest b4 i start work again 2 chiong 4 my O-level.

let me wish everyone a ahppy chinese new year first

yesterday watch a lot of sadd shows on how a war destroyed so much homes and families being torn apart and how people lost their arms and legs from all those underground mines in cambodia and how they have 2 use all the shells of these deadly bomb who took away their limbs 2 make them into fake limbs 4 them 2 use now there are underground mines all over the countries and expert says that it will take at least 10 years 4 all of the underground mines 2 be removed i felt so sad and it reminded me of how much we have and to the people in cambodia having a complete family is onl something that is very rare like we having a whole box of jewellery haiz a war really make people suffer and almost 1/4 of the people in cambodia was killed during the war i really mus think and reflect on how much i really have 2 be so lucky 2 be orn in a healthy singapore family.

finally got a bit of time 2 update my blog YEAH I AM 16 le although i am old but i old de happy marhx haha finally can watch the first rated show in singapore muhahaha which is nc 16 wohoo but it is one of my lousest birthdae in 16 years i am filled with pratice and remindal and hw feel so much like crying a birthdae jus ruin like tat so sadd but nv mind and one inportant thing is

THX ALL MY FRWENS 4 ALL THE PRESENT I REALLY LUV THEM A LOT AND EUU GUYS TOO HAHA

updating 2dae cuz i find it very irrating sia everytime like tat de lor at the bus interchange 2dae i was queuing up 2 board the bus when the bus cum a lot of ppl jus stand by the side rushes 2 board the bus then we queue until siao jus stand there like wat dun they noe simple manners at all since euu dun like 2 queue up then wait 4 the ppl hu queued up 2 board the bus first then euu board marhx i noe nobody like 2 stand on the bus trip so jus queue up lah euu all dun like 2 stand like we wanted 2 stand like tat bloody hell sia when i was young i was standing by the side and my mum told me shi jie euu mus wait 4 the ppl 2 hu queue up 2 board 1st b4 euu can board cuz they came first this is a simple gesture and yet many ppl are not following haiz feel so upset what had happened 2 the manners for singaporeans? we would be such a disgrace if we go 2 the other countries and board the buses there are we still going 2 show this kind of attitude?

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAE 2 MY SIS MU HAHAHA

euu are old le muhahaha but nv mind i still luv euu take it as a present 4 me 2 euu barhx this year got no money 2 buy but nxt year after i got a job le sure will buy 4 euu de ok? haha luv euu happy birthdae