Special Yet The Happiest

Went to Tanglin special school to do volunteer work on Saturday, have to wake up like super early and have to reach the school by 7.45am. Met JM, Min, Raysha, Hidayu & Mindy at redhill mrt station & we walked to the school which is nearby together.

What i want to say is they are really a nice bunch of kids, they are so innocent & they are the happiest, kindest people i ever see ever since I'm born. Although some of them are almost the same age as me, but they keep calling me jie jie which means sister in chinese, they are all willing to help out and they are really a nice bunch to hang-out with. I really felt so happy that morning while working with them, if i have the chance i would really want to go back & volunteer for them. I exchanged my number with the teacher in-charge of me that day, she told me she will call me if the school needs any volunteers =)

Sometimes normal people like us, tend to plot on people & also living in misery everyday. Just because we are normal we tend to get greedy, and is the greed that kills us & took away our happiness. It maybe sad that is harder for them to lead a normal life, & it will take them 2 times the will to be able to make it, but the simple & happiness in them is what we can't have it forever, not because we can't be happy is because we can never stop thinking so much, plotting at people & even to control ourself from creating negative emotions.

Maybe this is one thing which i can't have & i hope they will treasure it, shall let the pictures do the talking then=)

Grandma's Birthday Dinner^^

Went to golden spoon restaurant yesterday night to celebrate grandma's birthday, even though that night is not her actual birthday we had a blast with the awesome dinner, & not forgetting the amount of fun we had & jokes we talked about. First time we had an almost full family dinner & portrait, expect that daddy is not free & he's not inside. My next aim will be CNY i will make sure we will have a full family portrait haha. =)

What i want to say to grandma is happy birthday ah ma, you always loved the 5 of us & we also loved you a lot too, although is not your actual birthday & they say old people don't really like to celebrate birthdays, but i know you won't mind hope you love the birthday album that the 5 of us gave it to you. We will continue to fill up the album with more pictures as the year goes by love you lots.^^

Took some pictures of yesterday night, i shall let them do the talking=)

Ben & Jerry's Chunk Fest

Went for Ben & Jerry's chunk fest today, worked at the registration counter with min as usual played around with all my classmates & had lots & lost of fun at the chunk fest=) Had free vouchers for Ben & Jerry's ice-cream & took back some freebies too. Anyway it make me understand deeper about events & how a carnival is really like, which i had never really been to the past 1 year plus of my evm course. Okay shall stop here & let the pictures do the talking enjoy=)

Ups & Downs

I don't know how or where to start, but here goes...

First let me start with my most current result, i dropped from 3.6 to 3.1 i know is quite a heavy drop of 0.5 & I'm pretty upset about it a fact that i can't deny. I have been trying to refrain myself from crying because i know i deserve it somehow, i shouldn't blame anyone or anything at all what i get is what i deserve. Somehow they say Capricorn doesn't cry easily, maybe that's why i manage to control myself? But yea i don't know also, i would be lying through my teeth if i say i'm not affected at all guess i could only work harder this sem?

Second. Is about the start of school received my timetable mon & tues totally the same from 12 to 4 & wed from 12 to 5, thurs 12 to 4 & fri 8 to 12. I can't say is badly planned but i must say is really quite slack compared to the other sems that we had experience before. I really had a great time with IET for the past 1 year plus, now when most of us are opened up to one another we are all separated into different internships, our time in class is all being cut out & off & this is our last sem somemore, is quite sad but there is one day where all of us have to say good-bye & move on, hope we will all cherish the time we are left with each other & try to attend every lesson possible?

Third. A bit of messed-up relationship/life world, somehow my peace & quiet session doesn't seems to last long yea? I know that he is officially with her i don't deny that i feel a tiny tiny bit of pinch within me when this is being confirmed, but i feel really happy for both of them they look real good together, & i really wish them all the best from the bottom of my heart & last long^^ That egg comes back to fb message me now, when he don't have my new phone number of course like i ignore right? If he came as a friend's intention i wouldn't mind at all, but the problem is he is not that's why now i can only pray hard that he will not come back in terms of cyber, gadgets or even in real person.

Now talking about the good-feelings guy hmm the situation doesn't seems that it's improving, is still very very normal between us so normal that i know it well that he doesn't feel it i bet i'm like super not obvious at all, but i'm struggling one side of me hopes he feel it, another side don't so now how? This question have been with me for quite some-time, so i can only say let heaven show me the answer if it's meant to be it will, it it's not it never will we shall see.

Fourth. Old family problems with mum, our relationship doesn't seems to improve at all, sometimes we can argue almost daily, like having our three meals what i did she doesn't like & i don't like she hovering over me when i'm already 18. They say step aside each so things will be better, but i really hope she will step aside maybe once for me? Like trust me that i know what i'm doing, is so hard to get on with life like that with all these arguing & it drains not only the both of us, but dad & sis too pulling down the whole family.

So basically these are the few things that are bugging me now? Sometimes i can only stare out of the window & wonder what to do, with all these ups & downs of my life hoping to find the answer soon...