I really need a space for myself:/

Okay many things really happened these few days and i really dun noe what to do sia i feel so lost and irrtated. What should i do? Min tells me to ignore but i can't just simply ignore right? I know am in no position to interfer, but since he come to me himself, how can i pretend not to see anything and just dun reply and ignore...

I want everything to turn out good. is that really so hard? Why can't everybody just move on and get a life hais f sia:/ Even when i am having holidays, is not any better right? Nothing just seems right from the start argh wth how i wish somethings just never happened from the start:/

Okay since july i only have one post, i shall update more on august. Every week has been quite busy praying that holidays will come asap man, one more week of sch haha, went to clake quay- china town area yesterday with min and abi, abi intro de thailand food was awsome:) after a awesome lunch, walked to china town, hoping to visit the museum but end up, student price was 10 bucks hais can go bang wall man:P

Oh well, i am feeling less and less close with you now, maybe you are avoiding or is it just me, but idoits also can tell that there is some problem between us, i just wanna know what is the problem or is it just me who have the problem. I hate to be in this state, i want to know what is the problem and i want to solve the problem not by getting further and further away, if you really want things to be in this way, then i would just let it be but at least let me know what is the problem. Even when you dislike me in someway or another, i would still want to know why and how come so i could accept it and leave it.

Oh well tat is just for mow, going out soon will try to update as much as possible, maybe thinking of changing blog soon...

All i ever wanted to say to you...

Since you dun noe abt this, i will say all waht i wanna say here. Oh well, received your text last night, and yea uds what have happened and i knew it even more that is not possible...

I feels that i am getting harder and harder to know who and how is the real you. I am just got a feeling that we are getting distant yea. even when you are still willing to tell me lots of your stuff but i am just feeling that maybe we are just like tat? Somethhings i wanna keep to myself cuz i am afraid that you will be worried and i dun wanna scare you... But you can never sense why i am doing this, i know i shouldn't say out even the sentence but, it just slipped and i am trying to cover it up right? Just play along marhx, and you will forget abt it soon...

I can't deny that i have that feeling but i am controlling it and i am trying to curb it right? You may not sense it at all or you did but kept quiet for the sake of both of us and i am in the wrong to be thinking abt 2 ppl now, but you seems that you are taking over you noe? I am afraid to step inside once again , it always end up fruitless and also nothing good came out... But i can't stop it from happening, maybe i should try and numb myself but i tried to and to even distant away from you but you will always end up, giving me concern and making me laugh, even wanting to share my troubles, but how can i tell you when you are part of it? Maybe i should just let things be but my emotions dun allow that and nvm, i should have learn't from all the past incidents and grow up already...