All i ever wanted to say to you...

Since you dun noe abt this, i will say all waht i wanna say here. Oh well, received your text last night, and yea uds what have happened and i knew it even more that is not possible...

I feels that i am getting harder and harder to know who and how is the real you. I am just got a feeling that we are getting distant yea. even when you are still willing to tell me lots of your stuff but i am just feeling that maybe we are just like tat? Somethhings i wanna keep to myself cuz i am afraid that you will be worried and i dun wanna scare you... But you can never sense why i am doing this, i know i shouldn't say out even the sentence but, it just slipped and i am trying to cover it up right? Just play along marhx, and you will forget abt it soon...

I can't deny that i have that feeling but i am controlling it and i am trying to curb it right? You may not sense it at all or you did but kept quiet for the sake of both of us and i am in the wrong to be thinking abt 2 ppl now, but you seems that you are taking over you noe? I am afraid to step inside once again , it always end up fruitless and also nothing good came out... But i can't stop it from happening, maybe i should try and numb myself but i tried to and to even distant away from you but you will always end up, giving me concern and making me laugh, even wanting to share my troubles, but how can i tell you when you are part of it? Maybe i should just let things be but my emotions dun allow that and nvm, i should have learn't from all the past incidents and grow up already...