Exam Week { "- }

Currently having exam now just ended MICE yesterday & POM aka marketing ended today. How should I say this, is like i really studied hard for all my papers, but is just that I can't help but to feel nervous every time i see the paper and I can't help but to worry how will my grades be like after I finish every paper. Although they say what pass is all the past concentrate on the other unfinished papers, instead of dwelling on a paper that have past & you can't change anything anymore.

I really don't hope that my g.p.a will go up, *but it will be best if it really went up* but at least just let it stay?? I really really want to try and obtain scholarship for my poly education, i might want to prove something but is also for my family too I don't want to burden dad with my education fees, since he is paying for my sis's uni fees already. But other than continue to work hard for the rest of the 2 papers, and try to get whatever i got i can't do much too right?

Oh well i'll just work hard and pray that god will help and at least just let me stay at my g.p.a? Finally good luck to all my fellow friends, classmates & schoolmates continue to work hard & all the best yea=)

End of ALL projects & start of busy study week for exams

Had my last presentation on friday, which is PR presentation although is super short, but it went well and that marks the end of my busy projects sem but also the starting of my busy exam study week. There is bound to have small conflicts and arugements during the process of projects , but in the end everything still turns out well which I'm glad and really hope our grade will be excellent too=)

Here comes the busy one week and a bit of study week for our 4 modules, I feel the tense and stress in me and I don't know why I can't seem to remember anything at all from my four modules. Well I can only pray for the best as I continue to study?? I really don't need my G.P.A to go up, I just pray for it to maintain the same?? That's all I really hope for. Some photos to share for the last formal presentation & the marking of the end of all projects enjoy=)

Busy School week.

This week is really a busy school week, Monday national day celebration, Tuesday holiday/project day, Wednesday MOU signing with Cityneon, Thursday busy rehearsal/project working day, Friday VM presentation POM proposal & VM report deadline. It looks really hectic but manage to pass through it but somehow I ended up in bruises. Been rushing through everything, but yea as usual I shouldn't complain there are more people out there, who are worse than me while gonna share some pictures to lighten up the mood here. Gonna work even harder now till next time then:)

Snapping

Did I hit maximum? I don't know this question myself also, I never feel so annoyed before in my current life. Is not only the projects and the up-coming exams that is pressing down, all the other things that I have to come across although they say life give you shit, and I know that this is not the worse yet but I'm really really tired.

I don't like to show or let people know because I know I'm not the only one out there who is feeling really fucked up & stress, there are people out there who are even worse than me I prefer to ask people to cheer up & jiayous because I hope things will really turn out fine. Sometimes I even think when I'm asking people to cheer up, when I'm cheering other people I'm thinking am I really feeling this way towards myself too?

I know I'm not happy myself & I keep provoke my family, I just want to do my things alone but I know living under one roof needs to think in the shoes of other people, but I'm really sorry mum & family, I'm really tired I knew I shouldn't treat this place like a venting ground, but this is the only place, where I'm really sheltered. I tend to abuse this place, and treat it like shit I'll really try to change and I'll be better is a promise:)

No matter how awful, fucked up, annoyed I feel I'll keep it to myself because nobody deserve to endure the shit that you are going through, I believe in not affecting other people with your foul mood after this post I'll try and be better and I'll turn my snapping rope into a tight one once again:)

K-Box & Bowling session after school 020811

Had a great time today after school, went to K-Box with Abi , Alex, Min & Sun. Initially I'm quite shocked when alex really appeared & said that his joining us, I only thought that in his text to min, he is only like say say nia but somehow he really appeared haha. *Which is quite a pleasant surprise*.

First we took the circle line, & went to kallang leisure park we decided to have lunch at Nihon Mura Japanese restaurant. Then we went to K-Box from 2 plus till 6, I think somehow alex looks damn entertained by me, abi , sun & min. But I think he should receive more shock rather than entertainment uh, overall is really a great experience & not to say lots of laughter is being obtained hahaXD After that we go around for a short walk first before we decide to go for bowling, is super out of nowhere haha, we had just a round of game & I'm happy to say that I WIN alex haha, but I know luh is just his warming up, so I got the chance to win him-.- I shouted yamapi at min, when it is her turn to throw the ball haha, seriously I really thought it will help sio, but turns out it does not really helps haha.

After the game is already 7 plus, hmm good times really fly fast uh but is really a great time. We decided to go old airport road to have a budget & good dinner, alex volunteered to walk us there, although he is like going home for dinner?? The walk is quite a lot of funny parts, *too much/long to update here*. Anw by the time we reach old airport road is already 8 plus & worse thing is ALL THE STALLS ARE CLOSED, really omg we din know what happen sio ended up we took a small bus ride, & went back to paya lebar and we decided to have arnold's chicken. It is one of the famous food center there, & we parted ways with alex there but there comes another round of waiting hais, but we managed to get our seats quite fast, & we had a great chicken feast before all of us parted ways & head for home.

Today is really a great day spent, & I shall let the pictures to round up this post, thanks to min for all the uploading:)

Updates

As usual busy with school projects and trying to study & prepare for the final exams for this sem, it have been a while since I'm back from Sarawak made new friends from IES, IEU & IEV. The experience was great & I guess I'll never forget about it although I have to work really hard, but the fun times will forever be remembered.

After that incident 2 years ago I thought I'm going to be numb forever, but somehow he broke this numbness & I just enjoy talking to him. I'm currently in this hao gan stage & I just enjoy talking to him nothing more. But somehow I just don't feel the numbness when I'm talking to him but I'm not going to think more, I think I'll even avoid more but I know that is not going to be a positive outcome, thus I'm not going to dwell in it for long I hope it will just fade away as time goes by.

Recently I have this hope that I could fly to any island with a small resort, & go cycling, watch the sunset, fishing(I wish to try) even diving(even though I don't know how to swim). Maybe is because of Sarawak trip that makes me even more looking forward to travel & I love water & sea, but is ironic that I don't know how to swim right? Hope next year april comes faster, so I can start working part-time & earn enough to not only bring my grandparents to Beijing, but also enough for me to go travelling to the small island. But the only thing that is making me hope that time will go slower is because of IET, is so fast that 1 year have passed I'll miss everyone as my classmates.

Will just update till here then, I don't know to feel positive about 2nd paragraph or not shall see how things goes than, but is just a thing that is happening that I can't deny it's existence, I'm starting to can't wait to see a sunset already, shall post a picture on that:)

M18:)

Oh well it have been a month since I last updated my blog, so here's the first post for July, & maybe the last one too haha.

Went out for ganga's & jemmy's 18th birthday celebration, we watched the movie bridesmaid which is M18 as a form of celebration for the 4 of us who turns into 18. The show is a bit rated with sexual scenes from the start, but is really a hilarious show which makes all of us laugh like mad throughout the whole show, had a really great days with the girls will let the pictures do the talking:)