Thinking Too Much

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As the saying goes, "old habits die hard" i had this bad habit of mine following me ever since i'm young, what is the bad habit? The habit which most girls have which is thinking too much.

I keep thinking about everything, from studies to life, this incident which is around me now, there is this friend of mine which i can talk to quite well he is my previous sem classmate and due to the fact that we both stayed at west side, thus we manage to talk well. The class started the rumours about us, and recently it was made till quite big that his I.T.E friends also somehow found out about this & jokes about us as well. The problem is, i can't seem to find out how or what he's feeling normally any guy who don't have the slightest bit of interest in the girl, would at least deny or looks annoyed. But the thing is he is neither showing any, and at the same time i know very well that he's not interested at all, but why is he being like that?

Yesterday went home with him and another friend, apparently after friday's incident where his I.T.E friends disturbed us, i started to avoid a bit yes i only talk more to another friend because i feel awkward. Also i sense he's somehow avoiding me as well, so other than feeling weird & awkward i really don't know how to feel anymore. Tried to be normal and talk to him but idk i can't make it OMG my face is filled with "hey i'm feeling weird" look, we texted & chatted like normal when both of us reach home but it's so different when we face each other and i miss him & my friend, i had such wonderful west buddies from poly which i don't wanna lose. I admit i have good feelings for him but is not to the extent which i actually like or falls in love with him, if all these continues i guess it would become "Officially i'm avoiding you" which is what i don't wanna happen.

I feel so lost and i keep thinking about it, how he feels how i feel awkward & weird this and that. I tried convincing myself that "don't think too much about this, it doesn't mean ANYTHING." But apparently is not helping so now how? Idk and i really hope to find an answer real soon:(