Rainy Days Gloomy Emotions.

It have been a few rainy mornings and days these few days, looking at the harsh and cold weather. My emotions is just like the weather forecast these few days just as bad. Is just that i never really shown much to people because i dislike it, i will only show that i'm tired and i will just stop at that point.

Never really had a good sleep for the past few days, been sleeping late and having to wake up super early to go to school earlier. Then just today my laptop had some problems and ended up having to do my UT using paper, wa just imagine how o felt:( So many things together makes me feel really damn upset. Why doesn't the rain goes away within? Everyday is so greyish...

2012 Republic Polytechnic Year 01 Sem 01 Class W24G

Ravin & FiFi who bug in the shot hehe but they are awesome guys really:)

This is Ding Qi one of the closest friend i made in this class, gonna treasure our friendship a lot a lot:)

This is Ying Yu Darling<3 She's another closest friend in my class, she is one year younger than me surprisingly i manage to click well with her, normally i can't talk to people younger than me. Anw she's awesome we share really a lot a lot:)

The 3 of us together i love both of them:)We are always damn funny when we are together hehe^^

Another 2 guys Quebec & Nahumn, they 2 together with Ding Qi the effect is woah haha never fail to make me & darling laugh till tears fall out. They are definitely best friends materials, but boyfriend material? Oh well i can't comment for nahum must ask darling:P The girl is nana, she's 2 years my senior a good adviser as i find her really knowledgeable:)

This is one of the rare full class shot we have, but still lack of nahum & hairy because they PARTIAL tsk. If not it'll be a complete photo such a pity, anw i loved them my awesome classmates:)

Today marks the final day of my year 01 sem 01 classes, also the end of being together with all my awesome classmates. From the start where i feel so awkward with them, and not understanding much of them to currently after this 6 months where we all can't bear to part with each other is a long road but yea we walked to the end.

I don't know how to start but i dun wanna say much i will just let the pictures do the talking. All i wanna say is " Awesome year 01 sem 01 classmates=D ♥ Thanks for making the starting of my studies in RP a good one^^ I'm so gonna miss every single person when we have to change class next sem=/ All the class jokes/SCANDALS/after class party/racialism and etc, will never forget about them:')"

Finally i hope we would meet up soon kayys:) Thank you W24G for making the start of my RP life a good one:)

Short Getaway

As the title states, it's a short getaway to KuKup at Pontian Johor Malaysia. Been so busy with school work and such a fast pace in Singapore i actually feels quite relax when i reach there.

Spent my night over at Min's on friday evening with Sean, & went to catch the bus at early saturday morning and we reached the custom and pass through to Johor Baru, but a slight hiccup did happen because of another bunch of Singaporeans annoying much seriously caused us to miss our bus and wasted so much time. But anw manage to resolve the issue and reached the fishing village around 11.30am? Checked in the chalet and had an early lunch, the food was not too bad and the coconut pudding was good:) After that did some shopping with the guys, we actually spend a lot of time eating and walking around. But as you know fishing village they have a much simpler life and st a slower pace too, so we were so shocked to actually find time passes quite slowly down there. But had a good time spamming pictures and chatting with the guys miss them so much you know haha=)took a photo of the village children playing and finding entertainment in small items, comparing them with our Singapore kids who have all those gadgets with them woah seriously. I love how simple the place is, but one sad point is it is being tourism ed into not really like a real fishing village anymore and the water is quite polluted. We actually had mango and rainbow ice and also their fried ice-cream was seriously awesome, went back to the chalet for a rest before going on a boat ride to the kelong (on sea farm) As usual down there was awesome and we manage to touch a lot of their live seafood some with very weird feeling hehe.

Went back and we had a BBQ dinner and the whole bunch of us sing K together haha like a big family we really had fun and after that guess what? The fireworks that we brought is awesome, it's banned in Singapore thus we had a lot of fun and feel so excited after shower we went to have lok lok, a roadside store which sells a lot of food in sticks and we had fun blowing balloon bubbles, which Min & Sean brought too much T.T After that fell asleep and was woken up by Min in the morning for breakfast, surprisingly KuKup's time is slower by an hour breakfast was awesome after that, more makan and shopping guess what? I saw fire crackers alight and burst before my very eyes on the road, I'm so near it OMG *HIGH* (Problems of over-reaction when your government banned fire crackers) Saw how their cultured worked there i must say it's a meanful trip=) Showered and packed up for lunch and after than bus back to Singapore. I'm stating only a brief one i shall let the pictures do the talking.

Overall i had a lot of fun and i understand more about life through this trip needless to say i think alot after that but is really worth my money and i feel so relaxed, you should try going to KuKup one day=) Till the next time then=D

Dark Corner

Oh well as usual one month one post, been really busy till the extend that i don't even have enough time to sleep. But i'm really short of breathe now i feel so exhausted in life that i really feel like admitting i'm a freaking loser and just give up.

Firstly my UT 01 grade is horrible like no tomorrow, one A, one B, one D, one E & one F. Seriously i am practically having one of everything the amount of work i really can't take it anymore espically when i have to deal with math, i really cannot do math at all=( I admit i never really try my best, but i just don't understand and i feel so helpless how? I lost all my passion i had when i am in I.T.E idk where did i left it and i can't seem to find it back anymore.

Not only academic stuff makes me feel horrible, family issues and argument is still happening. I really feel so annoyed sometimes it is like a vicious cycle which always seems endless. Maybe my personality and my family do not fit? I don't know i really very tired. Now what's happening? My class having drama with exciting episodes somemore. Seriously people how old are we already? if there is any unhappiness isn't it best to set work & personal feelings aside? How does it feels when people dislike you & do so many things behind your back? Yes i understand who doesn't gossip? But please put a stop where it should be, i don't think by attacking her during presentations will do any good as well. Tell me what's the point?

All these is pushing and strangling me really, now i just wish i can just have a dark corner to myself, and just let me be freaking alone and honestly my line is getting so thin that once it snap it'll be insanity... There's no place i can run to...

Food Joy. Food art. Food Emotion.

As the title states, i'm gonna share 2 very adorable and and wonderful artwork done with food. Somehow this 2 photos cheered me up wherever i'm feeling upset and stress yes stress so much workload these few days uh. Oh well i don't like to whine much other than one phrase: "I very tired luhhh i need to sleep *yawns* @_@" If you know me well, that will most probably the most or the only phrase you'll ever hear me complain about. Anyway hope by sharing this 2 piece of food art done by people, i hope it will bring a little joy in everyone's life, it did to my life and it lessen the bitterness i have within me, one of which is my favorite cookie monster<3 okay till next time then.=)

2 weeks...

In a blink of an eye 2 weeks of break is coming to an end, fell sick during this 2 weeks but still manage to meet my 3 sets of friends and also not forgetting my poly buddy xiu li=)

How should i say? I guess it's the old term, life have it's ups and downs? every stage somehow there is some problem awaiting you to solve? But nevertheless i believe it will somehow come to a solution itself someday somehow=) Other than studying and looking for time to arrange all the meet-ups i guess i have nothing much to do in the holidays, of cause there are some minor issues like extra classes, and CCE activities but it filled up my break somehow. Now gonna prepare to go back to school next week, and also to prepare to counter the up-coming UT, know that i have been neglecting my blog for really a lot now it's like one month a post? Well will try to change and update more often=)

Following friends who's face appear on my blog, thank you for always been there in my life no matter the duration we had known each other, you guys are very important to me=) Also i have somemore who aren't posted, but you guys know who you are you are equally important to me. Thank you for filling up my life and holidays i love you all =D

Full Stop.

Last time i blogged about him is three months ago, now i must say after this post i swear that i have nothing more to do with him. So let's guess what happen shall we? And the answer is * drum rolls please......* HE PATCHED BACK WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND!!!! HOW WONDERFUL RIGHT? Such brilliant news and i only discover about it when i went and do my school enrollment.__.

Okay enough of my sarcasm is not as though i'm such bitch-.- Let's get to the point, so after all these drama, i am just a substitute for the past 3 months? This is one of the things that i freaking hate, which is to be a shitty substitute. But what can i do? In the end i realise is not only his fault i have mine too, as it always goes it takes two hands to clap so if i'm not interested, what harm can he do to me? Or more like i should say i dug my own grave? I'm so sick and tired of all this kind of situation you know, espically after this incident, i'm really really tired and i'm so afraid to fall in love ever again. Instead of patching up the hole that is already existed, he dug it even deeper and now i'll take double the effort to fill it up on my own again. Now we are in the same school i can't even avoid and worse still his girlfriend is my friend, she's totally not at fault at all, i feel guilty towards her instead i'm such a bastard='(

No matter how hard i try to avoid, i'll still see them in school, and is already three times is gonna be hard but i'm gonna make sure after this last post regarding him, i'll put a full stop and really get my ass moving on with life. Finally i wish them happiness...

Everything ends here with a full stop.