I don't know how or where to start, but here goes...
First let me start with my most current result, i dropped from 3.6 to 3.1 i know is quite a heavy drop of 0.5 & I'm pretty upset about it a fact that i can't deny. I have been trying to refrain myself from crying because i know i deserve it somehow, i shouldn't blame anyone or anything at all what i get is what i deserve. Somehow they say Capricorn doesn't cry easily, maybe that's why i manage to control myself? But yea i don't know also, i would be lying through my teeth if i say i'm not affected at all guess i could only work harder this sem?
Second. Is about the start of school received my timetable mon & tues totally the same from 12 to 4 & wed from 12 to 5, thurs 12 to 4 & fri 8 to 12. I can't say is badly planned but i must say is really quite slack compared to the other sems that we had experience before. I really had a great time with IET for the past 1 year plus, now when most of us are opened up to one another we are all separated into different internships, our time in class is all being cut out & off & this is our last sem somemore, is quite sad but there is one day where all of us have to say good-bye & move on, hope we will all cherish the time we are left with each other & try to attend every lesson possible?
Third. A bit of messed-up relationship/life world, somehow my peace & quiet session doesn't seems to last long yea? I know that he is officially with her i don't deny that i feel a tiny tiny bit of pinch within me when this is being confirmed, but i feel really happy for both of them they look real good together, & i really wish them all the best from the bottom of my heart & last long^^ That egg comes back to fb message me now, when he don't have my new phone number of course like i ignore right? If he came as a friend's intention i wouldn't mind at all, but the problem is he is not that's why now i can only pray hard that he will not come back in terms of cyber, gadgets or even in real person.
Now talking about the good-feelings guy hmm the situation doesn't seems that it's improving, is still very very normal between us so normal that i know it well that he doesn't feel it i bet i'm like super not obvious at all, but i'm struggling one side of me hopes he feel it, another side don't so now how? This question have been with me for quite some-time, so i can only say let heaven show me the answer if it's meant to be it will, it it's not it never will we shall see.
Fourth. Old family problems with mum, our relationship doesn't seems to improve at all, sometimes we can argue almost daily, like having our three meals what i did she doesn't like & i don't like she hovering over me when i'm already 18. They say step aside each so things will be better, but i really hope she will step aside maybe once for me? Like trust me that i know what i'm doing, is so hard to get on with life like that with all these arguing & it drains not only the both of us, but dad & sis too pulling down the whole family.
So basically these are the few things that are bugging me now? Sometimes i can only stare out of the window & wonder what to do, with all these ups & downs of my life hoping to find the answer soon...
