Occupied. That's the only word i can use to describe my life currently. Be it school which is internship, family life or even my own relationship life.

Internship started, means the start of my Y3S2 and also means 4 months of working life 5 days a week from 8.30am all the way till 6pm. Work have not been very smooth, as work is tough and the environment is pretty stress, no mistake could be made, and so many unfamiliar or rather unknown machines, oil samples, type etc which i have to learn and remember it's just not easy at all. Been trying my very best to work and learn espically to be a fast working personnel, all i can say is i can't quit since it's internship, and i don't like to give up half way, or even be irresponsible thus just grit my teeth, hold and walk on till the end of the 4 months i guess?

Family life, oh well what can i say? Maybe work will lessen my friction with my family? At least for now everything's been nice, and i'm really trying my best to compromise to their life and such. Been really worried for my mum though, and this worry haunt me like mad, can't seem to get rid of it. Her operation date been set, which would be next month, i guess she would have to stay in the hospital again for minimum 4 days to a week? Plus more discovery been found out from her body, there's a gene mutation in her body which occurs, and cause her body to not able to discharge out one type of medication and now she have to change her medication to fit into this. Me, sis and aunt have to go for blood test and maybe DNA extraction for research and help to see if it can improve her condition or not. Hopefully there would be a way out, not only it'll her, but might also benefit us or even the future people in medicine research industry. Granny went on for her mini operation today, and i'm really glad that everything is okay now, and also heard that another granny would have to go for operation too, really pray that everything will go well after that in my family.

Relationship? Haha i don't think i would even consider myself having a relationship life in the first place. But yes you Mr T, you're the only guy in my life now, i really don't know what are we somehow, looks like between both of us, non of us is willing to be honest about how we felt right? Or maybe we're not even sure of what we are feeling for each other right? Last monday you told me that i'm one of your fling, you have no idea how this sentence bring such a huge impact on how i feel man, i knew that from the start i might be a replacement, might even be just a bridge for you to cross over in order to forget her, but fling? Means you never consider us being serious maybe in the future at all? So i can just be casted away just like that? If from the start you said that, i wouldn't mind because i'm the willing party, but i felt so played after what i heard you said. After that when we're alone, & you accompany me to walk from dhoby to bugis? You let out your hand & grab onto mine, we just held hands, 10 fingers locked with each other and slowly walk through the night. You don't know how contented i felt, how blissful i felt, it's just a small gesture but it felt so safe & comfortable you know? But yes i'm just a fling to you i guess? I would continue to walk on with you, but i thought it out, even in the end it doesn't work out i wouldn't blame you at all because i learn to accept the fact, and i would be happy to help you walk out of her shadow. For now just let things be i guess? I don't wanna think about it, and i really don't have the strength to think about it as well, just that you don't know when we walk hand-in-hand, when you hugged me and that very first time when you piggy-back me & ran around, while i was laughing like mad on your back, these memories are what i missed, and i really felt safe & happy for that few times and i miss us doing all those together very badly.