It's December, almost reaching the end of 2013 time flies and yes this little girl is turning 21 in one & a half month's time and after that no more little girl i guess? :) Because it's the end of the year and it's the monsoon season, so we have rain almost every single day, life is just like rainy days.
Life is always a bitch we all know that and that is something we can't escape, what is more worse is how human's true character is really like, i'm only in my early 20s, still a student and i happen to go through & see so much of what is happening around my life almost everday. Why do we have to make life so difficult for each other? Aren't we all same? We are all humans right? I know nobody is perfect, but some are even our friends, why? Why must we make things so ugly? Anyway i am in no position to say all these because i am one of a bitch myself, i really dislike what my close friend is doing, and i am angry at her but i chose to kept quiet about it, and blame it to the fact that i don't want anything else to happen till we graduated, isn't that very fake and cowardly of me? Being evil to our friends around us, being such a fake person and everything, seriously i am very sick of how i am and what i am developing into.
Nobody knows that being sick for these two days, not going to school actually makes me very happy and i never had such a peaceful 2 days of my life, where i can actually have a breather away from school, and i get to lock myself away from so many things, and most importantly i don't have to be someone i don't wanna be in front of my close friend, she never know how apologetic i feel towards her, and i am super afraid that i might blow up at her one day and what happen 2 years ago might repeat itself again. There is too much rainy days in my life recently, but i will pray hard that the rainbow will show after everything, because no matter what happened, we always have to suck it up and go on in life isn't it?
