Never felt so weak in my emotions before, maybe i guess i am being too strong for the past few years. My smile gets lesser and lesser, this is what my friend told me but i don't know i can't tell myself.
I am really very tired, sometimes i really don't know how to go on anymore, to change course? to quit school? I know is never a good choice to give up maybe i should see my exam results before i decide how do i go on from here? Had a row with mum today morning and finally when i enter the bathroom, my tears fall down, should i congratulate her? She finally make this daughter of hers, who can't cry for such a long time cried. Sitting down there my tears just dropped down i don't know is it some kind of relief that i finally manage to cry, or is it i really can't take it anymore.
A smile is the best make-up and disguise one can use, i also do not want my friends to worry about me, is such a miracle that i actually make friends worry for me, when i am always the one worrying for them last time. I miss the happy go lucky me who can't be found anymore...
