Alone

I've changed i know myself too well, why? I changed because of him and i changed because of what i saw with my own eyes, it's just only in school not even the society yet and all i feel about life is just make me feel utterly disgusted.

The old me don't fancy wearing sleeveless, i kept my hair short and i never really bother so much about how i look or i never felt that i am so vain before, but i changed because of him which gave me such a huge blow. I hate that i blame him for my change or i should just say straight in the face that because i am vain, which is why i changed right? But the society and him makes me understand that one's appearance is so important. Feel so disgusted on how i blame him & the society and i feel so disgusted on how such a two face person i am. What i see and experience in school makes me feel even more disgusted, why does human have to be this way? I know it's the way of life and everything but seriously everyday going school just makes me feel really just so disgusted...

Nothing beats being alone, with my favourite sand, sea and sky. Went out alone today for a walk and really it feels so good, esp when i feel my feet being buried in the sand and the cooling sea water splashing on my legs. That's the only place where i can really let-go of myself and makes me feel just slightly better.