Final Words.

It all started 2 days ago, on a sunday night when you suddenly texted me " ):sorry......" at around 10 plus at night, you can never imagine my shock when i saw that text, how long have it been since our last contact? Almost 6 months and when i am finally really over you, and i have moved on, everyone is telling me not to reply but i can't control myself and after 4 hours of struggling i texted back "Kayy hmm. You okay? Did you send wrong message? O.o" & you replied the next morning, and as much as i guessed, you told me you are drunk & you never send wrong message.

I treated you as a normal friend, and i asked you to not drink so much & take care, and you started by telling me your troubles in school and so on, finally i raised the question and ask you why did you text me last night? Your answer shocked me once again, you said "Dunno? My subconscious done while i'm drunk" and we go on normally, i told you that you can always talk to me and you never replied anymore.

11.50pm, you asked if i'm asleep or not, and i said no, i don't know why you have to text me that way to see if i have a bf currently or not, which i don't actually. Also we dragged to your sleeping problems again, and you mention about your friend's theory. I said go look for a gf or a wife and we started again the problem we have when we were in a relationship, then you asked me "Are you glad you already left me?" "Or are you shocked" I chose to ask you back the question because i wanna know your answer, guess what? You said you are not glad, but trust me from the start is you freaking make me left you, and you have to drop me a bombshell telling me it is actually the fact that you are trying to protect me? You know from this point, i actually tried to trust what you said, and i wanna believe you, but subconsciously somehow i can't trust what you said and in the end you left because you rather i hate you then what might happen in the end which you would hurt me super badly & everyone will hate you? Bullshit all bullshit.

This is really how i feel:
你选择让我恨你, 所以才那么对我? 你会后悔会痛苦, 我就好得到那里去? 说穿了你也是自私不是吗? 当初自己决定, 对我公不公平, 我也有表达的份不是吗? 那晚你就不应该喝醉, 不该发那封简讯给我。我就不应该心软, 把你当朋友回复给你。我从来都没办法恨你。

你说你应该选择我的信念, 让两个人幸福或许我们现在就不一样了。你的选择不只伤害了你自己, 也让我在那半年里过的那么痛苦。我们都错了, 错的彻彻底底。

But anyway, like i said i can never hate you so this is what i will tell you finally:
I'm glad we manage to talk things out last night, i guess we have nothing else to do with each other anymore right? Bye Bye & Take Care L.T :)