Republic Polytechnic. Studies. Assignment.

Neglected this site of mine for a month, last post was saying that i'm having a break but recently school started, and officially i'm a poly student. Always dreamed of this ever since 2 years ago, but when it really came true somehow i don't really feel happy more like studying for the sake of a good future? But regardless it's still good for me and i will work doubly hard espically when i'm not taking back a business course, or even events i'm doing SCIENCE. Can you believe it? Shi Jie who can't even pass Os science and math, got herself into school of applied sciences. I used to dream of being a scientist or a psychologist, but i never really had the chance to because i'm weak in my math and science. But since now i'm given a chance to study science, i'll work hard towards it and the science that i'm studying is environmental science. It suits well for me compared to the other science diploma, because i have a love for animals and nature through my diploma i can get to be closer to them. As i mention earlier, school started it had been a busy half month with practice questions and tutorials to do talks to attend, get to keep myself busy which i like. Anyway shall just update till here, as i still have more work waiting for me till the next time then=)

A Break

Finally 2 years have passed, and yes i GRADUATED^^ Time really flies man 2 years gone just like that, finished my whole events management course, and now i'm having my holidays while waiting for poly results. I applied for 4 different polys, i'm not sure what outcome i'll get but whatever it is i'm accepting it, and yea i had plans of what to do, when i can't enter poly. But oh well let's talk about some other stuff shall we? Instead of being stress over academic issues.

As i mentioned earlier i'm having a break now, which is like a finally after being so stress on internship, and retarded design applications honestly i suck at computer related stuff, so i have to grit my teeth & do my poster & brochure on adobe illustrator & my website on adobe dreamweaver, but nevertheless i manage to finish it. * accomplished face* Okay back to topic, holidays right? So monday went to meet the girls, celebrate ai poh's birthday, & to collect pay, & had dinner with sofie, cheng yi, fiqah, jae & min min. Finally the pay is in=) Tuesday went to visit boss at ttsh with jae & cheng yi. Wednesday & Thursday shopping,Friday timbre & celebration of sean's birthday, seriously friday was a awesome day with lots of fun. Today had a good sleep, met up with stan in the evening, went to have Japanese spaghetti and went to east coast for a walk.

Gotten myself a semi-DSLR,which is Olympus XZ1 love it man it took a lot of awesome pictures and i'm so happy=) Life is all well now really expect for 2 parts which is poly admission and also my relationship part, apparently we decided to be good friends for now, a lot of things we shall see how it goes? Maybe there might be something in the future who knows? Anwway enjoying my break now, & gonna stay in my holiday mood=) Till next time then^^

Me & You

It have been a up & down half month for myself i guess? Why would i say that? Okay let's start from the top shall we?

After my internship have ended, and went back to school, other than not seeing him as much due to work, we have been texting each other like usual talking about almost everything not only in my world, but also in his world so went on till 14 of February, which is? Yes valentine's day it was a random chat between us, & i went "why leh? Want ask me out uh?" Honestly i did'nt expect him to be saying that he ask me out for dinner & movie, so yea guess what? Yeaps i went out with him so it went on &he paid for everything, so i'm like feeling guilty? Haha but what my friends told me that this ic called investment, okay whatever haha=) So the night went on as i chatted with him on train while he send me home, he folded a pink heart & yea i folded a straw heart, so is our exchange of gift?

After this everything went on as usual till the hell week which was chalet week, everything should be normal & happy right? He have to be over caring to another girl which makes me jealous, yes i admit i'm freaking jealous & angry but what can i say or do? I'm in no position to do anything am i? So yea acting like a bitch/bastard my face was super black, i'm angry with him not my friend apparently he's the one at fault. To make things worse for us he din texted for 2 days after the chalet on sunday, & just when i have to make up my mind to just forget about him i have to see him in my DSG class the first thing when i open the classroom door. So ironic right? As usual he's super nice to my friend & i really ignored him, even when he texted at night, i seemed fierce. A lot of things i told him straight but i changed it to kidding or no luh, because i know that if it's gonna be like this then he'll be affected, i don't know why i cared or bothered so much about his feelings, when i tell myself that i'm letting go. So yeaps you guessed right, end up we manage to reconcile and now back to talking terms.

So this is the drama or you can say emotion roller coaster, that i went through for the past 2 weeks, which is half a month. I'm meeting him next week to talk things out, I don't know what to expect or what the outcome will be, but i'm really tired & i hope this will come to a conclusion eventually somehow...

Happy Chinese New Year 2012 =)

My niece, she's playing with us isn't she adorable=)


Me & Sister @ day 02=)


Me & Sister @ day 01=)


Me & Daddy<3


Daddy & Mummy<3


Sister & Daddy=)


Me & Mummy<3


All the angbaos i collected.


Steamboat at mum's =0


Lunch at mum's side, ah ma's cooking was awesome.


My fav snack by my grandma:Fried sliced crabstick=)


Steamboat on the eve=)

Had an awesome chinese new year this year, went to reunion dinner at dad's side on the eve, first day went back & 2nd day went to mum's side. Actually is always the same every year but this year seems to be enjoyable? Anw collected angbaos, got nagged at a bit & the rest still goes on? I should say actually this year is also like a lazy new year? I'm like feels so lethargic & sleepy all the time but i still enjoyed myself nevertheless. Okay not gonna say so much, but gonna post up pictures of this year's CNY. ENJOY=)

Friends?

Had an open talk with him today, i know what his fears are and he knows what my fears are. Apparently i fall at the wrong timing & i guess we met at the wrong timing? Is like if we had met later maybe things might work out between us.

I remembered his promise i don't know how long he will keep with them, i choose to believe in them although is really hard for me to trust a guy but i can't ignore what happened between the 2 of us in this past few weeks. Sometimes i want to ignore him, run away and have a quiet time on my on, but i can't never ignore him for long somehow & i believe even if i go missing somehow it won't be long.

We agreed to stay as close sisters for now, & see how things goes on as we get to know each other longer. I feel so tired i don't have the strength to think so much anymore, maybe always let natural takes it course is the best solution for everything...

Happy 2012, birthday to Me & Sofie

All the gifts & cards i received thank you everyone=)


The gift by workmates & boss (Kari Bin Lim) ( My son??) Love it so adorable=)


The chocolate fudge cake that we shared=)


A pic with my H sofie heh=)


Blowing the birthday cake with sofie=)


The kissing scene?? LOL As usual requested by the ICs.


The group photo=) Almost all ICs are present.


We cutting cake together=D (More like they see us as cutting wedding cake-.-


Me & sofie was forced to feed each other-.- we are considered "married" that afternoon.

Have not been blogging for quite sometime, first of all HAPPY NEW YEAR aka 2012 people=) I know it have been like 2 weeks since 2012 have arrived & i'm late in posting, while have been really too busy with my internship & also some other commitments. Nevertheless gonna post now just a brief update of the first few happenings in 2012.

After happy new year, what will be next? Happy birthday luh to me & sofie hehe=) I'm 19 this year (i feel damn damn old sio) & darling sofie is 20 this year (opps did i just expose his age?) Haha anw like of course spend my birthday working since it falls on a friday, & is considered part of my school IEP hours. I received a lot of surprise & i feel really blessed & happy, one of the really best year of birthday that i ever had the days went pass fast & cheerfully. Sat is sofie's birthday so nice right? He's born on the 14th of jan while i'm born on the 13th of jan, but he's one year older than me haha. Didn't know the ICs & Donny planned a surprise for me & Sofie & we thought SMO was having a black-out (How dumb can both of us get.__.) They brought cake for us & for me who never blew candles for 6 years, manage to blow one this year but with sofie hehe=) I shall post up pictures & update you guys what's going on.

Had a great year when i know so many people while working at AMM, esp if i don'nt know if the right one is coming or not=/ (we shall see) Also thank you everyone for all your wishes, cards & presents=) Finally Happy 2012 to everyone, may this year be a great one. Happy 19th birthday & 20th birthday to me & soso aka sofie hehe=)

Can never get anything done

It have been weeks since i worked, most likely i should already know what to do, get it done well & so that everything will run smoothly, but somehow i'm always screwing things up & make a mess out of everything. Being an intern i can never help much in admin work which i should, & everytime i'm given a job somehow i don't know why things will screw up & also i can never handle it well. I always shoot out something which i shouldn't & make people angry, sometimes i really hate myself so much that i feel like slapping myself in the face, nothing bloody nothing in the world i can do right staff deployment i'm too slow, distribution i can screw up the number of audio gudies, staff not cooprtative ticketing i can have problems & almost everywhere i go, something wrong will always happened.

Felt so screwd up not only at work, but also my family life, always having money issues which will in turn argue with my mum, & sometimes it affect my mood & will in turn screw up my work, which i don't want to but what can i do? I never want to argue with her at all? It's just i can't seems to do what she's pleased & i have my own way to do things which she doesn't like. No matter how much i try my best things will still screw up, & seriously can't take it anymore am i such a failure in life? I'm only 18 i should be good at most of the things i do, not so screwed up at everything right?? Same goes for my relationship is like i have nothing to say just one word: SUCK & is ttm. Looking at him i don't know what to do, i failed in so much things in life, when i'm only 18 seriously how the fuck am i gonna continue my entire life, when i still have so much more road to continue walking? Will i fail for my entire life? I don't want to you know? Maybe i should seriously consider what & how am i gonna continue my life journey...